woman

a woman's heart should be so lost in

GOD

that a man needs to seek

HIM

in order to find her

p/s: i wish i could be a woman like this too! xD

i may not be perfect
but parts of me
are pretty awesome.

God is gracious

lil ivan is getting better.
breathing on his own without the oxygen tank.

i lift my hands and praise the God who is so great beyond words can describe!

p/s: Ivan means God is gracious (=

i was very sick, few days ago.

fever, cramps, migraines, stomachache.
i coudn't even walk properly.
i couldn't even control my limps.
i thought i was nearly to die, but God spares me.
He spares my life.

my condition turned better, yesterday.
my lame joke ability was once back.


setbacks.
fcuk!
it comes back.
starts with migraine again.
now.
i feel like cracking my head.
fcuk!!




i dont suffer from isanity
i enjoy
every minute of it!

a letter of thanks.

To my Father, Brother, Best Friend, and Savior…

im taking this chance to thank You for everything You’ve done for me. no words can describe how grateful im that You’re with me. all through my life, You never left my side, through the good times and the bad. i’ve been through so much, been through a lot of hurt and miserable moments, and through all that.

You’ve helped me overcome my fears, my doubts, my weaknesses. even when i thought i was at the edge of dying, You were there, saving my life. when i was grasping for air, You were there, comforting me. when i was struggling in pain, You were there. i never could have done it without You. You’ve reserved my life, more than once.

thank You so much… there have been times when i thought i couldn’t take the pain anymore, there were times when i felt i could no longer stand the loneliness, but You were there to comfort me and tell me that everything is going to be alright.
through wonderful people and things, You reached out to me and reminded me that life goes on.

Because of You, i saw that life is worth living, that there’s still so much in store for me, that i shouldn’t waste my life in unimportant things. You taught me how to trust, and You strengthened my faith. it wasn’t easy.

i’m so lucky to have You. thank You for protecting my heart, i feel so at peace when i know that You’re in control. i don’t ever wanna be without You. thank You for using me for Your glory. i love You so much and i owe You my life.


with all my heart,
Zoe <3

a lot of things happened recently.
good things bad things.

blessings still overflowing.
so overwhelmed by grace.




sylvia jiejie gave birth to lil ivan.
another cute one to join our gang ya..
doctor gonna remove the oxygen tank today.
hope that lil ivan will be strong and tough enough.




caleb and mabel's wedding.
a heart-warming one.
owwwhh..they made me feel like getting married too.
when's my turn?



had been soaking myself in medicine these few days.
from western medicine to chinese medicine.
call me miss medicine!


final exam is coming.
it is just around the corner. time flies. i cry.
>.<

heart Jesus <3


sometimes it's good
to forget how you feel
and
remember what you deserve!

another today

it's 11.34pm.

it's 15 august 2008.

got an sms from sylvia jiejie today.
lil ivan is still in icu but he is getting better.
God hears!
though those are only whispered-prayers.



im 21year and 29days old today.
it is such a blessing that i've been so far in my life.
almost a decade, at least, soon to come.


woke up very early today.
had been lazing around whole day.
favors from God.
favors from men.
indeed, im so blessed.


p/s: spring wedding rule no.1: NEVER OUTDRESSED THE BRIDE!





people who dont know me
think that im quiet
people who do know me?
they wish i was!

today

i laughed whole day.

my first time doing my devotion in the train today.
God assured me of a lot of things.
a lot of things which i've forgotten.
i give thanks.
heart Jesus <3

today was great, in a way.
i had fun though i wasnt really happy.
a bit fake horr.. >.<
im trying to get myself out of the mood swings, trying hard, I AM.

niapniap.
wiping my tears away with tissue paper.
i will be fine.

im Szoe.
im born to be tough.






im not emo
not gangster
not a jock
not popular
but im something
you aint gonna find
anywhere else

lil Ivan's day

yesterday, 12Aug2008, was lil Ivan's day!

sylvia jiejie is so brave!
becoming a mother and giving birth is indeed a NOT-EASY-TASK.




lil Ivan, ,must be strong ya!

do you still remember the few 'kicks' while i put my hands on your mummy's tummy?
your way of greeting me was so CUTE!
falling in love with you since then, the cute and indeed blessed one.


auntie Zoe wants to meet you, desperately.
auntie Zoe wants to hug you, tightly.
auntie Zoe wants to embrace you, with her love.
auntie Zoe wants to hold your lil fingers.
auntie Zoe wants to play with you, we play hide-and-seek k?


baby Ivan, be strong and stay strong ya.
gonna embrace you with prayers.
love you, sylvia jiejie and lil Ivan *hugs*




just wanted
to tell you that
auntie Zoe is so
incredibly happy
to have you in her life!
xoxo

mirrored reflection

when i look at myself in the mirror, i see an imperfect person.
someone who tries hard to fit in.
someone who tries hard to do her best in this insane world.



sometimes it’s hard when i see people around me and i get discouraged.
there is one thing i constantly remind myself, is never to let them destroy my faith and beliefs. it is because these are the things that make me the person that i am.

i refuse to let other people get me down, at least im trying my best to do so.
the world may have so much evil in it, but it’s also full of good… of love and hope. that’s what i want to incorporate into my own world.
someday, i’d like to look at myself in the mirror, and what i’d want to feel is contentment.

more than anything else, i’d like to look at myself and be satisfied about how i lived my life. when all else is said and done, i’d like to be able to smile and say to myself, i did my best.





laugh louder
hug harder
love longer

it's my life
remember that
when you talk about it

hot sun tanned me

the sun is so bright out there.

>.<

my umbrella starts to complain already!

time to get suntanned? perhaps.




tanned enough?

im just so perfectly imperfect =p




smile.
its the second best thing
you can do with your lips.
whats the first best thing?
use your brain to think la!
xoxo

today

had been sleeping since 11pm last night..till 11.15am just now.

11pm, a new record for me! LOL*
i have never get the chance to sleep before 12 since last year.

sometimes im really proud of myself that i can stay awake to the next day and continue with classes without getting fainted. of course i do yawn hell lots la.
gosh..am so proud!

well. one of the reasons i went to bed early last night was..I DIDNT GET THE CHANCE TO WATCH OLYMPIC OPENING CEREMONY! hell. so sien. i want to watch the fireworks la T.T
that made me regretted *for a moment* to be in kL..else i was sure goyang kaki-ing in front of the tv with popcorns in hands, amazed at the fireworks performance, at HOME.
-dreaming-


owwhh..was chatting with gorgor in msn last night.

********
(8:10 PM) Lex: meimei...
(8:10 PM) S Z o e: gorgor
(8:10 PM) Lex: u must take care ok
(8:10 PM) Lex: gorgor going to beijing tom
********
(8:25 PM) Lex: u know hor
(8:25 PM) Lex: tickets r really cheap LOH
(8:25 PM) Lex: u wana come with gorgor
(8:25 PM) Lex: haha i kidnap u to beijing
********
(8:27 PM) Lex: aiya
(8:27 PM) Lex: im gonna watch LIVE
(8:27 PM) Lex: lolz
********
(8:43 PM) Lex: i think next week gorgor still in BEIJING
(8:43 PM) SZoe: >.<
(8:43 PM) Lex: muahahhahahaa
(8:43 PM) SZoe: i wanto punch u!!!
(8:43 PM) SZoe: u go for how long?
(8:43 PM) Lex: as long as i want
(8:43 PM) Lex: lolz
(8:44 PM) SZoe: >>.<<
(8:44 PM) Lex: meimei come la
********


gross! where got people like this one! this snoopy is going to beijing to watch live olympic!!
wait laa..i gonna send assassins to beijing to SLAUGHTER u! hiakhiak.
oowwhhhh.. >>.<<'''

I WANT TO GO TOO laaaaaaaa!!
*sobbing*


annahhhhhh~
very sien. got nothing better to do.
assignments are all done. presentations are all done.
one more midterm on coming tues and i will be FREE for couples of weeks before the final exam.
*planning planning planning*

caleb and mabel's wedding on coming saturday.
what to wear to a spring wedding?
any suggestions?
highheels? sneakers? slippers?
black? blue? red?
tshirt? dress? lalastyle?
*scratching my head*


gotta go prepare myself.
gym later.
phhhffftttt..it has been a while (=




an apple a day
keeps the doctor away
but if the doctor is cute..
screw the fruit xp

恩宁

很久不见的老朋友
真的很久

谢谢你昨天的陪伴
很开心

最近忘记了怎么笑
谢谢你替我找回我的笑声

见到你
我才发现 我真的很想你
潘式的无厘头 潘式的瞎
潘式的无聊 潘式的笑容

一切一切
我都很怀念
我也都记得

KL废废记之唯一明星照！


只有跟你在一起，我才敢这么废。
哈哈！突然觉得，我们真的很可爱！（厚脸皮-ing）
为什么我看起来很像瞎子？！？
味虾米？！？！


恩宁经典语录（1）

Szoe: 你有几个肺？
EnNing: 一个..嗯..两边!
Szoe: 哈哈..是一对啦!
EnNing: 对噢..我有一对肺..
Szoe: .....
***（EnNing 很认真..）***

恩宁经典语录（2）

EnNing: 鞋是sepasang...
Szoe: 是sebelah啦...
EnNing:不是sepasang咩?
Szoe: 是sebelah啦...
EnNing : 是哦!?!?
Szoe: 哈哈哈！
*** （EnNing 的马来文真得很差!）***

恩宁经典语录（3）

Szoe: 哇!三个巧克力十一块而已!
EnNing: 是啰！一个才两毛二！
Szoe：?!?!?!
*** （待在泰国太久数学会变差?）***


很希望 时间可以停留
酱我们就可以废久一点

要保重！
(V)(V)(V)


p/s: 你说在MC那里有一个男生的感觉跟我很像。所以吖，你回去以后，每当你见到他，跟他打招呼之余，你也要在心里默默地跟在马来西亚的我say hi!

**我很像很无聊...跟你学的！**

Passion Kuala Lumpur

PASSION KUALA LUMPUR is a gathering for UNIVERSITY-AGED young people throughout Malaysia and South-east Asia. Believing in the university moment, and what God longs to do in this strategic window of time, the entire event will focus on the bigness of God, calling students to PRAYER, WORSHIP and ACTION, and a Story so much bigger than their own.

The heartbeat of PASSION KUALA LUMPUR is to:

ENCOURAGE the CHURCH
Foster UNITY among those who love JESUS
Spark VISION for the UNIVERSITIES of Kuala Lumpur and the nation
Tell the STORY of REDEMPTION in compelling ways
INSPIRE students to EMBRACE their part in God's global plan for the NATIONS


not interested to go at first.
i thought it was just another concert, something similar to the my-never-missed-ps concert.


hmmm...i WENT. LOL*
**it was because kitty couldnt make it at the last minute, so there was THIS extra ticket.
**half 'forcing' by my lovely yet cute cellmembers and they tempted me with lacoste. which means, if im going then i can bring my cute lacoste xp

lacoste at Passion KL!


everyone loves lacoste! LOL*


we had fun!


wristbandssss!


with the tall tall guitarist ^^



it was indeed an awesome concert.
the spiritual atmosphere was awesome, the band, the worship, the stage setting everything was awesome. really worth it for a rm20 ticket xxp
it was awesome to worship together in one heart one mind one sound with 4000 young people..unity makes the difference!

anyways,i heart the songs!

++ Chris Tomlin is sooo kawaii!!


++ Charlie Hall is cute if he doesnt have the weird long beard.


both of them are truly gifted with nice voices.

Louie Giglio's just fantastic!



this is not merely a concert. it was truly God's mighty move in our nation.
everyone appeared in the concert was all about one name, one story and one fame-JESUS! (V)(V)(V)
the message was powerful and heart-touching. Holy Spirit worked in everyone's heart and i believe that there is something supernatural been sown into our nation, our generation. (= we gonna make JESUS famous in our generation!



i especially heart the song, 'God of this city'..
"and greater things have yet to come, greater things are still to be done in this city"
yeah, greater things are yet to come, greater things are still to be done in our city, in our nation and in our generation.


they were showing KL pictures while this song was played. the most awesome part was everyone raised their hands and sing it unto KL, proclaimed it over KL and we gonna make Jesus famous here in KL!


***Passion's blog:
http://268generation.com/blog/2008/08/beautiful-kuala-lumpur/

Szoe hearts Jesus.
Szoe, theoneJESUSloves.
xoxo

taa-daa~

the only video that i had during my 6day-stay in miri.

everyone was busy chitchating loh! didn't even have the time to camwhore puaspuas with me T.T

anyways, still miss the good time i spent in miri. a short break after a year in kl.
im SATISFIED ^^*

p/s: i am actually not DARK geh lohhh~ it's the lighting in the restaurant!! takkan they on the light while people celebrating birthday..LOL*
THEY DIMMED THE LIGHT!!