at the crossroad again.

it's either stay or leave, right?
correct me if i'm wrong :)

msned/talked with a few classmates last night.
seemed like everyone already has an idea in mind of what to do next.
it's either staying back for advance diploma or credits transfer to other colleges or universities.
apparently, they are sort of 'decided' huh.

my current answer is...
' yeah, im going to HELP.'
that's the most secured answer i think.
i am not-so-decided yet.
90% HELP.. i guess so. since there are some of YOU guys are going there, why not?
HAHA.
i still need friends to go with me...


i couldn't find the courage which brought me all the way from miri to kl 4years ago.
where are you my COURAGE?!?
where are you, COURAGE!?!?


people asked me, have you ever regretted over anything?
yes, i did regret for wasting my two years doing stpm
but i've learned to be independent.
yes, i did regret trusting over someone who doesn't worth it
but i've learned my lessons.
yes, i did regret for wasting too much time on people who doesn't deserve it
but i've now found the one who deserves it.
yes, i did regret for not listening to my parents
but i've learned to love them more as time passed.
yes, i did regret for being too childish/naive/rebellious
but i've grown into someone my parents expected me to be and i'm proud of who i am.

i do regret over a lot of things, but as i walk down the road, i give thanks.

once, daddy told me that i've grown from his little girl to his heart attack.
one day, dad, as you walk me down the aisle during my big day, it will be the moment you are most proud of me. i promise :)


HAHA.
i know this post is kind of random.
i neither know what is in my mind. kinda messy tho.
pardon me k.
im at the crossroad, yet to decide which path to take :)
yet, i am emo no more.

love you all out there who love me!
OxOx

YOOOHOOOO!

KELMARIN~ YESTERDAY!
woke up in the morning missing my darlings in GRC, especially Sarah.
hadn't seen her for days alreay :S
and rush rush rush rush to GRC!
and i only realised that how much i miss them!!!
all my pretty childrennnn~~
love love.



pardon me eyebags, results of staying up late XD

had fun at cold storage klcc!
muahahhaha.
tonsa junkfood!
release stress maahhh~

yeah. spent splendid time with esther.
budak ni fly all the way from kuching to parasite at me house.
HAHA.
love her~

before entering into exam venue
my last day in college, i hope XD
never know i hated college so much leh.
there's a reason. HAHA.
i hate it when YOU are there and i love it when YOU are not around.
YOU LAHH LOSERS!
i don't need betrayers to be my friends!
.................................................................
but i do need a sweet one like him XD



my eyesbags are scaryyyyy hell frightening lor!
love this pic to heart!

got this as RETREAT for myself, for stayin throughout the whole 2hours.
i overcame the nausea-ness mannnn!
eat first, hospital later :S
it looks healthy anyway. it's GREEN~

p/s1: sleep first. more updates soon :)

the road not taken

i am so exhausted :S


am i asking for too much?
i am.


i wonder,
is this the path i really want
or it is just another massive mistake in life?


at this very moment
i miss, the road not taken.

Love Life 永远的小天使

Love Life 珍爱生命 永不放弃

很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢 这部热爱生命宣传短片。

很感动。

那想要活下去的那一份坚持，让我红了眼眶。

好久好久。

家彣，好可惜她來不及等到影片的播出就先离开了。

把她那一份，一起好好活下去...好吗？

有些话
永远都只是台词


和你一起
安全感是假的
所以我选择站在原地


因为爱你
所以没关系
我会陪你
直到你遇见爱你的人

another round?

ManUtd lost the match. what a game, 4-2 in penalty kick >____<
though am not so overwhelmed by sien-ness, he is.


talked about a lot of things while watching the match.
future and stuffs. so uncertain, dont cha think so?
and sophheee u lil sweetpie! do not stay up too late.
it's 2hours ahead of msia leh..HELLOOOO!


T.T we talked about Saigon again.
he said if ever had the chance again when airtickets are cheap,
we're definitely going for a weekend escapade.
HAHA. i checked the tickets.
a birthday treat, im thinking of.
since the next coming up will be backpacking bkk and maybe cambodia and laos..
going back to Saigon shouldn't be a prob anymore since i already went ONCE~

*the tickets are so affordable*



**fingers crossed**

anyway, it's gonna be a zoetheonlybackpacker i think. he've got a phuket trip at the beginning of july. save money la dude!

got this huge piece of note when i went to work yesterday.
IT WAS FROM UNCLE KELVIN!
i heard that he was at GRC on Mon night.
i miss you la uncles kelvin.
T______________________T
things are just not so exciting anymore since you left.
anyway, this huge piece of note did make up my day (=

students' mobiles.
some of them are MUCH better than mine.
sigh. kids nowadays!

me table after school.
start to get busy liao, right after my practicum.
i am now officially working voluntarily at GRC.
lalalalala~

Sushi King day.
went with Sarah Annabelle Mling Colleen Nat and Tim.
okok soso la. not as nice and choices were limited.
anyway, we ate at normal price. not rm2~
because we are rich mah!
HAHA.

with the cute sisters! *hearts*

we had fun and great time together (=
when is another outing..gotta plan plan.
how much i wish we had longer time together.

anyway, as i've mentioned in the last post.
a newbie from Berlin.
jeng jeng jeng jeng~

designed coca-cola bottle by Zac Posen.
a young labelled designer. i simply love the prints on it.
coca-cola~

anticipating tomorrow~

such a wrong timing!

WHAT!?! WHY?!?!

why is this happening ah? im so so so looking forward to my bangkok backpack trip lah!
was so shocked when he told me about it yesterday.

on 11April:
Thai protesters storm Asian summit building
Thailand cancels Asian summit, declares emergency in Pattaya
Helicopters evacuate leaders from Asian summit in Pattaya
Thai PM lifts state of emergency in Asian summit city

and Singapore govt is doing this:
S'poreans advised against travel to Thailand's Pattaya

where is our govt?!?!
i dont wanna die in bangkok weii!!


on 13April:
Thai PM talks to assure people: gov't in charge

and soon after the public speech by the PM...
First deaths in crackdown

this morning~
Two die in clashes as Thai troops besiege Bangkok protesters

i SAW this!!!
Bangkok Calm After Day Of Rioting

hopefully bangkok is calmed...till im done with my backpack there.
seems like going pattaya is out of my options already.
islands are not affected la horrr...
i guess i needa prepare money to buy gun liao..to protect myself >.<

imisssaigon
T__________T

must read!

I SUPER HEART THIS NOTE OF JUNE~

ROCK'ON~!!!!



the comments.
HAHA.
so OMG!

Blessed Easter!

truly captivated by the beautiful savior.

may my life be one unbroken gaze, fixed upon the beauty of Your face.

it was Easter Day, and Easter Day is not about easter eggs and easter bunny!
it's about the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ!


went children church for the very first time.
it was fun~

we are OVERCOMERS!

p/s: we had fun xp ULTRAMAN~

grateful&givethanks for this.

was too happyyy playing volleyball with kids.
and actually i thought i sprained my toe.
until it got real swollen this morning.
i was like SHT HLL WAD IS THIS?!?!

still, went to GRC..before i went to see doctor.
and a fella, STEPPED on my poor lil toe!!!!!!!!!
i was GRRRRRRR but i couldn't do anything.








anyway, got it plastercasted.
pretty ugly huh~
nevermind, as long as the bone grows back, who cares?
fractured toe, volleyball, what an accident.
LOL*

tidaaatadaaa!

you guys hor, thought you could run away with it?!?

HELL NOOOOOO~

what are these posts in your blogss hor?

*clearing my throat*

number 11 is just so MINE~

LALALALALALLALALAL!

*tag1
*tag2

anywayyysss, went out yesterdayy. to KLseesee.

to shop for upcoming wedding punya dress!

pardon me for the sexyy bra straps. LOL*

the dress looked so nice on the patung lorrr!

and sht when it was on me. siao.

nahh behh tahan liao.

what am i supposed to do with purple color wei.

save me from the purple disaster please!

and, i went home, EMPTY HANDED.

it's Topshop student day sales this week.

gonna run to Tophop with lotsa cash in hand!

*scream scream sceam*

and as for todayyy, another wonderful day at GRC.
kids are cute, adorable, heartwarming (=
had exciting P.E lesson today, we played volleyball!
or i shall put it this wayy, i shiok sendiri?
it was just more than FUN ya'kno!?!?!
it has been really long since i last sweat of playing sports!
it was just fun, with MsCath, MsColl, MsJojo, Sarah and the rest. *hearts*



though there were things not so smooth..naughty students!
things worked out quite well overall.
had nice chat with Saaaraaahhh. hehe. felt like im years younger.
no generation gap between us lurrh~ nananananannanana!






p/s: anticipating the wedding, the everything, the whole thing about backpacking..
and the family package thingie. HAHA.

Ps. J's wedding ; 280309

i know this is a super late and outdated post.
pardon me la.
too many cameras around that day. i do not know who who who got the pics until they sent it to me. xp

here comes some highlights.

our table, always the most HAPPENING.
very luan indeed. LOL.
this is just so US ((=



with Daw and Nat.



i love this.
can ya see the strong bonding between us?
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with Tim and Nat.



with Nat and Connie.





all girls-family portrait, take one.

finally i can indulge liao!

my favourite of the dayyy!
strawberries from korea~
*munch munch munch*

doctor declared holiday for me stomach, for a week!
indulge@Nando's ^^
both my favourite~

my portugese roll with chicken liver~
*yumms*

first time buying so much junkfood!
which worth...
*drumrollllsssssss*
RM300+-

meeee collection of coffeeeee!
indulge in ca-phe.
i can die for a cup of nice ca-phe <3

although im allowed to indulge in junkfood, i've bought healthy drinks too.
i am not as naughty as you people thought loo..
comm'n!
rock'n mannnnn!

mentosss!
9 flavors.
Gotcha!

i am just so glad to be back to my old life.
dohhh~
i'll guai guai to keep my medications ((=

TAT--TOO

LOVE is much like a tattoo
i take the risk, face the pain and place it on a special part of me
when the time comes when i need to erase it
i have to endure the pain again and realize that it will forever leave a scar
a scar that will always remind me that i had a tattoo that once symbolized something so special.

it's friday!

was busy with last minute work this morning.
too last minute la. i admit loh. rushed 2 assignments and got them done within 6hours.
it was 5am when i printed eveything out.
there were only my lappy, printer, assignments and my coffee accompanying me.
the rest in the house were all slept dead!

was kinda GLAD when i saw this on the notice board!
our group brochure!!!!
thanks again to those who helped out! muaks*

rushed to GRC after i handed in my assignment.
looked pro, didn't i?
LOL. im Ms Zoe ((=
was kinda rushing, wanted to meet my lil darlings there!

my table! muahhahah. occupied by me stuff when uncle kelvin is not around.
it is not messy actually, it LOOKED messy only (=

there were missionaries came over to teach the kids for pe class on wed.
which i didn't blog about it. here comes the round up post xp
mr big size from carlifornia!

and cute koreans. they are all 16 nia!!
they are all cute. 11 is the cutest. LOL*
they speak really fluent english with american slang!

and todayyyyy...
i got this!
taken a pic with Eugene, my number 11.
isn't he just cute? LOL*
don't envy meeeeee~

and not to forget, cute lil girl from GRC. Malachi's sister, SAPPHIRE~
adorable. korean plus indian..kordian!
how adorable~

说

离毕业，没有很远。
没有想象中的那么兴奋。
是我变了吗？ 答案是肯定的。

我学会了，在 爱与不爱 之间，选择 离 开。
我学会了，在 笑与不笑 之间，选择 难 过。

我，看见了伪装的快乐，诚实的泪水。
我，不累，只是失望。



你答应我的，你说过的，就好像噩梦，从来没有放过我。
我想逃，逃不了。
只能，用我剩下的勇气，替我 告诉你，
我会活得比你好。
你，不再对我重要。


穿上毕业袍的那一天，你还会记得你答应过我的吗？
我不奢望，只要你记得。
我选择了百合，放弃了向日葵，你不知道吧？


我微笑，谢谢你。

...... ..... .....

说到毕业，美人鱼们不会来了。公平啰。
但是，还是会稍稍期待的。