i wish you enough.

I wish you enough sun

to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain

to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness

to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain

so that the smallest joys in life

appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain

to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss

to appreciate all you possess.

I wish you enough hellos

to get you through the final goodbye.

take good care of Jellow teddy!

and yourself, Kuku boy :)

我要去罗马。

昨晚 可怜的喵喵 让我无缘无故的骂了好久

不是喵喵的错

早上起床后内疚了好久

传了简讯道歉

喵喵很像还是很不高兴

是我变了吗

不再觉得抽烟让人讨厌

不再抗拒蒲夜店的朋友

我好像 不再是我

活在身体里的灵魂 找不到回家的路

罗马，

我好想去哦...

我，要去罗马。

说

没有失望 是假的

没有关系 也是骗你的

等了好久

结果这样

快乐是自找的 不是你给我的

笨 我又回到以前

不应该轻易相信 你

原来你跟别人都一样

让我失望 是你的天份

教我怎样可以不要

一颗 不快乐的心

你给的 我都不要了

i hereby declare FOUR months of liberty!

FWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-DOM!

my loves :D

and DouDou!

see my eyes are bigger this time eh.

dont call me s.e.l anymore!

holiday means...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

痛

我没有哭。

跟马麻通了电话

她 还是同一句话

累了就回家，不要逞强。

唯一不同的是

这一次

我哽咽了

love my Sunday.

toothfairy and kites.

:D :D :D :D :D

ahhhhhhh!

i smell freedom :)

love the evening breeze by the lake side.

thank Meow Meow for today :)

im looking forward to my kolok-mee :D

slllrrrrrrrpppp~

Kuku J!

no why.

btw,

PRESENT; thanks Sue :)

im blessed to have you too :)

woke up feeling lethargic.

unwillingly, dragged myself out of the bed.

english paper on a Saturday morning :(

and i think i screwed it up.

i was way too sleepy :(

should have remember to drink coffee :( :( :(

i think i...

am craving for fweedom.

i want to go the place i wanted to go long ago!

the newborn :)

*day 1*

*day 12*

mohawk baby!

SHOOOOO CUTEEEE!

i am very tempted to go home now.

can't stop ang-goo-goo-ing when i saw him on skype!

haha.

lil Natalie has new toy-didi, to play with now.

*envyyy*

soweeee!

im soweee :(

soweee for letting you all down.

:( :( :(

and i thank you all for spending your time to teach me and to keep me company for the past 2weeks :)

.. Lavinia HanHan Kc Rory Jacky ChiuWaai Jeff ..

and not to forget Sue :) who has been teaching me since the beginning of the sem :)

i only ask for a PASS for statistics.

we started right after lunch.

but a PASS for statistics means sleepless night :(

******************************************

tuesday: Statistics.

wednesday: job interview.

thursday: Health Psychology.

friday: job interview; meeting up with prischoolmates.

saturday: English.; job interview.

tuesday: Psychology for Communication: bbq.

wednesday: Kuku J.

being random.

what if

LOVE

isn't as simple as

BOY meets GIRL?

***************

anywieee,

the one who is food-poisoned,

YOU take good care of yourself.

be a good meow meow.

****************

i am very random.

i admit it now.

skrrewwl you who hate me for being random.

****************

i have ulcers and pimples and heavier eyebags now.

oh, and quick-tempered as well.

stay away from me else i bite.

****************

i am looking up and down for a job, now.

they say that i'm too choosy.

well, let's not be choosy then.

work in club la!

****************

13days.

i'm struggling again after telling people that i gonna stay back in kl.

we'll see how things go, next week.

i plan to work, you see.

i ain't gonna be able to work if i go home.

and you know i am going to miss you for being away from you for months.

don't you miss your family?

i do, very much.

but i am going to miss you more,

knowing that you won't miss me like how i do.

*****************

someone told me that

he doesn't think it's that bad to stay back in kl.

he doesn't know, why uk.

seriously, i don't know why, too.

maybe i will go home, someday.

*****************

i yelled at my mom over the phone yesterday morning.

i forgot why.

maybe i was too tired.

and she called when i was sleeping

*****************

lots of friends getting married.

i want a wedding too.

mine.

*****************

sometimes i wonder,

if i'm really stupid,

or i'm just lazy to think.

i don't know.

ok, i'm lazy to think.

****************

how old are you?

erhm, 22 years old and 6months.

today.

i have 6more months to enter 23 :)

****************

a thought came across my mind today.

i was totally freaked out.

maybe, i'm just not the person you and i know anymore.

****************

i love to fold paper planes and i fly them in college.

i love to fly kite and it reminds me of flying kite at the balcony with my papa.

i want to learn to ride a bicycle and then imagine that i am riding a motorcycle.

i love to laugh and i feel alive when i laugh.

i love travelling around just to meet my friends.

i love to smile when i'm happy or unhappy.

i love my friends like how i love french fries.

*****************

sometimes

i hate myself for being stubborn.

but

this is who i am.

i am still on my way.

by the way,

i love blogging especially during late night.

:)

he made my day!

what the eff!

ROFL.

:)

i went searching for my heart the other day and found that it was gone.

maybe i hid it away so well that it disappeared to another place where lost things go.

like that room in hogwarts?

or maybe locked away in this airless casket it suffocated and died.

i miss that red headed girl :)

*********

this is to entertain SUE :)

another episode of 'who's more childish'.

i bet you miss us much during exam period :p

btw, this is another evidence of me being bullied by chiuchiu hor!

::: 14 days to dolphin! :::

and so it's done.

he said he would be there for me
he said he would never leave me
no one knows how i feel deep inside
no one was there when it happened in real life
some say i left for another guy
some say i left because i've had enough

..No..

i left because everything became different
him and i became different
our love is like a shattered glass now
our love could never grow again
he moved on, i couldn't
he came back, i came back
he moved on, i moved on

i'm tired of crying for him
he blames me for everything
he doesn't blame himself
i keep it inside
i carry with me all the burden too
i don't want to look back anymore

i moved on

it's all been done

i'm someone new now
so don't come looking for me now

i live a life full of smiles and happiness
go out without telling anyone about it and feel blessed
i thank the Lord for changing me into someone new
something worthwhile and got rid of all my blues

i ask for nothing

everything is done

i am awake at 6.30am today!

hence, i followed Nat and Shuang to pasar :p

it has been a long time since i went pasar, 3 years ago?

anyway, i love it there :)

btw,

saw Kc msned me some of the pastyear questions for health psychology when i got home.

:. As a health psychologist, how would you convince a person who is not at health risk to exercise?

:.In your opinion, how does a country's health care system affect people's health?

:.In ur opinion, how far is a workaholic at risk for coronary heart disease?

i don't remember we studying much on bio in health psy eh.

i never thought of Ms Eva's so called 'opinion based questions' will come to this extend eh.

macam mana lah ni?

:( :( :(

another day of studying.

it's maths day from today onwards.

sigh. i hate numbers.

conversation with DouDou.

compliments~

wooohooo!

but DouDou, you don't know that i'm stressed up as well :p

i don't want to be photoshopped into uk photos eh.

i want to be there with you all!

btw,

after i heard you writing a full booklet of 10pages answers for a 25marks question!

what the hell!

i used a booklet for the whole paper and you used a booklet to answer a question >.<

you are making me getting even more tensed up lor.

Fifteen.One.TwentyTen

first day of final.

my phone was flooded with texts and calls since the day before.

these are the few which put a smile on my face :)

arh, cute people!

1.35am

got this when i was preparing to sneak into my bed.

>.<

Dou Dou is forever cute la!

2.40am

Nia Nia is the my fav at the moment!

love her so much.

never forget to remind me of things to study :)

and morning call.

LOL. i've put 15 alarms to wake myself up!

5.03pm

screwed up the first paper.

MeowMeow never failed to cheer me up.

D-O-L-P-H-I-N!!!!!

5.34pm

after much cursing the two bastards which appeared in our paper.

BakBak texted me this when i got home.

very cute, isn't he?

LOL.

10.29pm

this brought me to tears.

she never forget any big day of mine, even my final.

my love in Bangkok :)

EnNing, i love you the most!

anyway, bad day, today is.

first time screwed up FIRST paper in exam.

:(

the killer question was,

Kaplan&Saccuzzo (2005) : "The concerns that currently shape testing include professional, moral and social issues. " Explain these issues. (21 marks)

EFF :( :( :(

it's not in APA ethics code and PSIMA eh!

23hours left.

ok, i admit that i very KIASU this time round.

last semester of my 3rd year and 2 more semesters to Liverpool...

i can't afford to flunk any of the units anymore.

i still have my very first and LAST one to reseat in April :s

thank God im not the only one who flunked BUT i can't afford to reseat for another paper liao lor.

i seriously need to get my ass to Liverpool next year!

football match!!! i want to watch it LIVE :D

and of course, my Europe Europe Europe~

i so want to go Vatican lor.

so, as to fit my KIASU attitude

and avoid being teased by Douglas that i will not be able to go uk together with him and the rest...

bye bye to facebook blog movies and online shopping :(

Zoe is super stressed up.

Zoe is very tensed up.

Zoe is super nervous.

Zoe is very worried.

Zoe super very the KIASUUUU!!

DANNNGGGGGG!

been spending the past 2days doing stats with the boys.

we had fun more than what we really learnt :S

my mind has been polluted by their colorful jokes.

they help me to brush up my playing cards skills *evil grins*

i inhaled more second hand smoke :S

and learnt more censored words =.=

ohhh, supper lor. they only let me go home after dinner/supper.

24hours before the first paper.

im super stressed up this time.

i don't want to screw anything up eh.. one more year to uk :)

*fingers crossed*

a lot of people keep on asking me about the exam timetable.

here it is :)

don't ask me anymore!

FRIDAY 15/01/2010	PM	AHLA4184 PROFESSIONAL AND RESEARCH ETHICS IN PSYCHOLOGY APY1-46 M4(1-46) 2 hrs
TUESDAY 19/01/2010	AM	AAMS4944 STATISTICAL TECHNIQUES FOR BEHAVIOURAL SCIENCE APY1-46 M4(83-128)
THURSDAY 21/01/2010	AM	AHLA4194 HEALTH PSYCHOLOGY APY1-46 V7(29-74) 2 hrs
SATURDAY 23/01/2010	AM	AELE3773 ENGLISH FOR MANAGEMENT (SOCIAL SCIENCE AND HUMANITIES) APY1-46 M6(50-95) 2 hrs
TUESDAY 26/01/2010	AM	AHMC4104 PSYCHOLOGY FOR COMMUNICATION APY1-28 Q3(90-117)

it is a good one, i think:)

at least not as packed as the last few ones lor.

i have time to sneak out and play in between the papers.

as well as more time to study, i think :)

fingers crossed****

it's statistics day.

being 'forced' to do statistics revisions with the boys.

from morning to early morning.

we were stuck together more than 12hours.

lame colorful jokes and poker cards and talking.

the sisters!

hmmmm*

we didn't have that kind of luck -.-

our stat guru!

first time seeing him so rajin.

chiuwaai's messy stat workings.

my tidy stat workings :D

***********

the other day as i was chatting with chloe in msn.

Chloe: i thought you already paktor? with chiuwaai..

Zoe: ... NO, what the eff. HAHAHA.

a lot of people been wondering all this while.

the answer is NO :)

we're sometimes brothers, sometimes sisters!

it's her birthday!

SHE meant a lot to me :)

the girl who fooled around with me in high school :)

she was there with me for my 22nd birthday :)

but

i was never there for hers :(

our last meet up was in adl, several months ago.

thankyou for being a great friend, darling Jia :)

BLESSED 24th!

may it be a greater year ahead in your life.

wish you whatever you want esp your heart's desires!

you know you are so precious to me

i love you!

xxx

when it comes to exam :D

Xuan:

hotel management.

a bit relaxed hor :D

Toonsu:

information system engineering.

movie-ing while reading notes :D

Zoe:

psychology.

coffee and notes :D

Kylie:

business admin.

i guess taxation is killing her :D

my study buddy in the living room :p

studying in the living room = staying away from lappy

we talk more than we study. haha.

study mode is officially ON :)

no play play.

see ya all after exam.

BUH-BYE!

::: 20days to dolphin :::

when exam symptoms strike :(

i sleep!

*longer than usual*

i watch movies!

*download download*

i eat pringles!

*6 bottles in 2days*

i drink coffee!

*4packs of nescafe in a cup*

i go yamcha!

*which i never go usually*

i do my laundry!

*more often than usual*

i clean my messy tables!

*which are messy all the time*

final exam of this academic year.

im so effing stressed up.

i feel like im worn out already the moment i see the stack of notes and books on the table :(

i never know i need to be so stressed up before enjoying the summer in Liverpool :(

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

im 'collecting' MOTIVATION to start my revisions these two days.

::: 21days to dolphin! :::

life isn't easy.

when it comes to exam.

coffee and sleepless night.

woke up during midnight found my nose bleeding.

migraine all day long.

get diarrhea almost after every meal.

i missed prischoolmates gathering last night :(

even anti-social kuku J went!

let's have one in kl okayyyyyyyy!

grrrrrrrrr.

6days to the first paper :(

i feel sleepy when i think of it.

it's dad's birthday, today.

his 49th :)

another year not celebrating with him.

[dad, you must be missing me much, i know!!]

i miss the time you called and asked if i ever missed you.

we didn't spend much time together ever since i came over to kl.

[but you know i love you, more than mom :)]

i wish, i could hug you, now.

::: 22days to dolphin :D :::

心 很靠近

我们的年纪虽然有差距，但是我们的 心 很靠近。

听他缓缓地说出这番话。

很感动。

泪水，我留不住。

我可以保护 妳 这个长不大的孩子哦！

也许，可以再疯狂地爱一次。

也许。

i had a fun day out with my loves :)

they are more than just classmates;

they are who i can rely on.

they are the ones who are close to hearts.

they are those who can accept me for who i am.

they are the ones who laugh with me.

they are the ones who never blamed me for taking too much leaves while college is on.

they are, the ones i cherish and love!

oh, and they are my future lovely housemates in UK :D :D :D

last day of advanced diploma first year.

byebye assignments and presentations and midterms and lab test!

9days away to our finals :) :) :)

4months away to our second year of advanced diploma :) :) :)

18months away to Liverpool :) :) :)

final is just around the corner. sigh.

sleepless nights and coffee.

no blog, facebook and msn.

see you all after exam :D

psssttt! i want to see dolphin and sealion eh. so cute :D