i love yesterday.

green green trees waterfall cute people taking pictures lame jokes

music movie meowmeow

i simply heart my yesterday.

how nice if yesterday was my everyday,

life would be so much easier :)

鸵鸟

带我走

好不好？

我 不难过

今天

吃饭 一个人 我

深呼吸

告诉自己 我可以

没什么大不了

望着下过雨的马路

我抬起头

眼角湿了

我 可不可以 选择

不勇敢？

Do you think you can take care of yourself after days being taken care of?

im trying my best over here :)

so what's next?

i was shocked when i found out that she was beaten by someone.

somehow, i wished it wasn't him.

but we all know that it was him.

my heart ached, for what happened to her.

i wished i was there for her.

i wished.

and my heart, still aches :(

sometimes, i find myself do not believe in love anymore after seeing them suffocating in their relationships.

i find it foolish to trust someone with my heart and believe that he will not break it. and yet sometimes, i wish there is someone i could go anywhere with.

he told me that

sometimes you need to stop thinking and go where your heart takes you to!

maybe he is right.

we shall see and i miss you, brother! :)

Dong-Dong-Chiang!

had fun today.

laughed both my lungs out :)

love both of them, so much.

it's more than only eating popcorns.

Bento and Yogurt in the cinema :D

i'm loving it.

-how did you do that?!?

-three lil magical words :p

btw, i can take good care of myself.

i think :)

5 months to enter 23rd :)

i'm getting lil bit more excited.

i am thinking of what i want from you guys this time round!

muahahaha.

i dont want birthday cards anymore.

*evil grins*

Cny Eve :)

i find it cute*

tiger and google! :D

a text from Dad early in the morning.

a call from Mum later in the morning.

reminded me to behave well :)

tonsa of smses and calls from friends to make sure that i'm ok.

i am really ok :)

lil warm reunion dinner with MeiLing and Vigh.

nice food, thanks Auntie! :)

starbucks and movie with MeowMeow.

my greentea latte is nicer than his americano :)

met SueAnne up and guess what!

an angpau from her mum :)

i think

my cny eve this year

ain't that bad :)

Zoe cries.

NiaNia told me to never cry easily.

arhh, it sounds so hard for me right now.

i came across this somewhere online and found it kinda meaningful :)

Why Women Cry
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put prayed to God who would surely know the answer.
When God responded, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:

When I made the woman she had to be to be made special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And lastly, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers and only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it. She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

a beautiful one.

i love this post :)

可不可以不勇敢？

每一次我都说，没事，我行。

我总带着坚强的微笑，一副永远勇敢的样子。

可这一次，我想说，我可不可以不勇敢?

我只是小心翼翼地问了自己，

然后又带着坚强的表情，勇敢了一次。

她们说：别孩子气了，成熟一点。

他们说：别幼稚了，稳重一点。

他们都说得没错，可是，我可不可以最后一次重温儿时的快乐，

然后从此丢弃那颗童真的心，做大家都希望我做的成熟而稳重的人。

我一直想知道，倘若他们看到那一刻，

我如此快乐的表情，还会不断地催我成长，让我成熟吗？

took a stroll around the condo compound this morning.

quite empty.

it's 3days before cny and it's already quite empty.

emptiness strikes me, no doubt.

i don't feel good :(

Optimistic

he doesn't deserve me.

i know that that's what everyone's been telling me for months, and ive known it was true. but now i feel it. i feel it in my heart that i am too good for him. he wasn't any good for me. he hurt me, he rejected me, he made the corners of my soul cave in. he made me happy for such a short time, and even then it was full of ups and downs. and i deserve better than that. i deserve a boy that loves me, that truly knows me fully and completely and is in love with every bit of me. i deserve a guy that always wants to be with me and will do anything for me. i deserve a man who makes me happy.

and i believe he exists. i believe now that someday, i will find my perfect match. i haven't been optimistic in months. i've spent so much time alone, dwelling on him, on the one that broke my heart. and i haven't been able to see that this isn't the end. i'm young, i have the rest of my life ahead of me. one day, i will find that person and we will fall crazily and madly in love. he exists. and it's okay if i don't find him anytime soon. i'm not going to go out there and search for him. because you know what? i do believe in soulmates. i believe that everyone has someone made just for them. and today, today i felt that hope inside of me. that i will find my soulmate. and that this guy, this stupid guy that broke me is not him. so why am i wasting my life crying over him? from now on, i'm just going to let go. i know i won't completely get over him right away, but i'm not going to spend any more time sitting at home when i could be living my life. i'm letting go of him because i don't need him.

i'm going to live. i'm going to have a love for life. and i'm going to be happy.

- credits to LeLove.

- i heart this inspiring post :) it is exactly what i feel and what i am going to do and where i am, now :)

you don't want to know.

you don't know that i am disappointed, do you?

i know you don't.

nevermind.

i have...

this lil Zoe living in my heart.

she'll scream when she sees teddybears and happy when she gets to eat ice-creams.

sometimes

i just wish that she is always here

with me.

p/s: i am 159cm tall btw :p

今天，回家。

好期待 暌违了好久的笑容。

:)

argh.

i couldn't help but keep on thinking about the upcoming meeting up with Prof. Lim on Monday.

OKAYY, I AM VERY ANXIOUS.

i know K4K Foundation is a serious thing and i might not even be well-prepared to go for it.

but, why not give it a try since it might help me in doing my thesis.

and working with gifted lil angels ain't that bad too.

arghhh, i can't imagine how things will turn out on Monday :(

so now they know that you're [ENTERTAINING] too...

...Moni replied that.

well. i wasn't meant to be entertaining though.

when he asked me, 'Why do you think we will hire you?'

'BECAUSE I GRADUATED WITH A BRAIN!', I answered.

they started laughing then.

i take it as a good ending of this interview:)

at least they laughed. LOL.

it was a nice experience :)

i didn't get lost in finding my way to the office.

the MD is super nice, they told me.

well, we shall see. HAHA.

anywieeeee, i had fun.

and yeah, i was in formal :D

Mama Monica and Baby Claire :)

JieJie Zoe loves Mama Monica and Baby Claire!

抱着你

today's Google is shoo cute :)

teddy-bully!

so mean!

i gonna pinch your face when i see you!

LOL.

she's back.

with tears.

it has been almost a year.

when she thought things are progressing well.

nightmares come back, haunting her again.

when lights are off.

when the night comes.

he lied to her

and

she learned.

learned to say that she is ok when she is not.

learned to be the person he wanted her to be.

learned to say yes to the things she disliked.

learned to say no to the things she liked.

half of her died when she was with him.

another half of her died when she left him.

she was once a living dead.

she thought she was recovering well.

until the night comes.