以前；以后

恩宁写的。

"或许我常会被以前的事情而影响
看不见身边的事　物　人
变得现在　冷漠　无情
也看不见关心我的人
对不起
我不想往回走
希望前面直走　或　下个　路口
我会走好　不再跌倒"






看完  我哭了
不知道为什么  好难过
我不想往回走
我也不想重来一次
够了



我要的其实不多
但最近我很不快乐
如果能习惯沈默
我或许就不难过

我很不快乐
有一种想哭的念头
却又说不出那是什么
我就是觉得不快乐
我很不快乐
寂寞好像有填不完的缺口

整个世界都在变
我是不是也变了

我找不到勇敢
继续往前走


我的声音在笑
泪在飙
电话那头的你可知道

Zoe screams:

TODAY 

IS

......

.....

...

..

.

CLAIRE'S DAY!

i love who we are when we are around us

with loads of love!

*2008*

when we were still very funny. *coughs*

*2009*

always us; the noisy ones.

Rory the BakBak

Sue the AiAi

Webber the OrhOrh

Zoe the AngAng

we've changed much throughout the years. don't cha think so?

the remain unchanged one is our lame-ness. *cough cough*

the end of advanced first year. we've learnt much.

from lame jokes to serious stuffs.

and being labeled as the noisiest four monkeys in class, we're kinda proud of it hor btw.

anywayy, soon it's gonna be the last year of lame-ness.

two more semesters and Hi-Liverpool.

never easy but i guess we gonna make it there, together:)

* i think we gonna be the noisiest tenants in LJMU hostel*

coughs*

aren't my future housemates cute?

we have KLCC btw :p

一年

狠狠地被爱伤了一回 我选择逃离

疗伤 也实现 自己的愿望 对朋友的承诺

就这样 让灵魂放纵了快一年

美丽的胡志明市 我看见平凡的满足

繁忙的曼谷 我看见真心的笑容

安静的汶莱 我看见平静的生活

小小的新加坡 我看见生存的代价

寒冷的爱德莱德 我体会家的温暖

陌生的墨尔本 我体会人情冷暖

似曾相识的哥本哈根 我体会言语的美丽

带着满满的回忆

回来

偶尔 把照片拿出来细细回味

一个人的旅程 也许孤单

但

我想 我是幸福的

家

还是最后的靠岸。

p/s: 我是婆婆的大BABY! :p

守约。

看到华庆传道的面子书 写着

NO APOLOGIES婚前守贞誓约卡，一个无悔的抉择。你/妳准备了吗？
Abstinence, it works every time!

Saving Myself for Marriage

Believing in saving myself for marriage, I make a commitment to myself, my family, my friends, my future spouse and my future children to be sexually abstinent from this day onward until the day I enter a lifelong, committed, monogamous marriage.

婚前守贞宣誓卡

本着婚前守贞的信念，我对我自己，我的家庭，我的朋友，我的未来配偶和子女承诺，从今天开始，我将会在性方面保守贞洁，直到进入一个有终生承诺的，一夫一妻的婚姻关系中。

我的。

好多年以前。

:)

只要有 你们

很感恩 我不是一个人

我还记得 你陪我一起担心

陪我说说话

陪我做我想做的事

你自己也难过

但是还是让我靠

我还记得 你打电话来狂哭

让我也哭了好久

谢谢你 让我有藉口发泄一下

你哦 要乖

你还有 我们

我会记得

你一直都在说的

我都记得

感谢 你陪我走过的路

不是很长

我会好好的收藏起来

我会乖 :)

原来

我是你的负累

对不起

无所谓

当作成长

the end.

every bit of it is coming to an end.

it's the end of it.

it's over.

sometimes, life is easier when we keep our mind simpler.

Zoe,

let it be the way it is supposed to be.

Tuhan Pasti Sanggup :)

Kuatkanlah hatimu
Lewati setiap persoalan
Tuhan Yesus slalu menopangmu
Jangan berhenti harap padaNya

Tuhan pasti sanggup
TanganNya takkan terlambat 'tuk mengangkatmu
Tuhan masih sanggup
Percayalah Dia tak tinggalkan mu
(Dia kan mengangkatmu)

by: Maria Shandi&Mike Mohede

********

a beautiful song :)

my fav song of the week.

改。

不要再那么孩子气了 好不好？

不要再让人操心了 好不好？

不要再那么任性 好不好？

不要那么粗心大意 好不好？

成熟一点 好不好？

稳重一点 好不好？

好。

我 会改。

today.

it's over.

:)

sing me a lullaby, will you?

爸爸说

我还是那一个长不大的孩子

只是和他的话题变少了

爸爸说

我变了

变得多愁善感

变得不爱表达

爸爸说

他很爱我

问我是不是爱他比妈妈多

爸爸说

我要乖

要记得好好照顾自己

爸爸说

累了就回家

几天都好

爸爸说

好久没有好好地抱抱我

我才发现

原来爸爸最担心的是我。

我会 乖。

life is not measured by the number of breaths we take

but by the moments that take our breath away.

saw this at Ps.Kong Hee's fb status.

it somehow makes me think, for quite a long while.

Shawn said,

life is beautiful :)

i miss you and your big smile.

how are you doing over there in heaven?

i miss you.

for you

to her,

i saw myself in you.

i feel for you and i am always here for you.

i do not know how long you gonna take to move on.

but as long as you need me, i am there for you.

frankly, i was shocked to get that text from you.

it was just so not you.

but i was glad at the same time, to be the one you trusted.

it's never easy to move on from someone you once loved.

it gets even harder when the love between both of you turned into a habit before you realised about it.

it is never easy.

i know.

i feel for you.

i might not be able to give the best advice but i have a listening heart.

i can cry with you when you feel like crying.

i can scream with you when you feel like screaming.

i can laugh with you when you feel like laughing.

i can dance with you when you feel like dancing.

i can sing to you when you need comfort.

you can lean on my shoulder when you are tired.

you can be weak and let me hug you, for just once.

sister, let me in this time.

will you?

let me walk it through together with you :)

i love you.

x

************************

to him,

my deepest condolences.

i am sorry to hear about the departure of your dad.

i know how it feels, losing someone we love.

i know it would be cruel to ask you to move on.

but dwelling in sadness isn't something he wanted to see.

you may dwell in the sadness and mourn over his departure but do move on,

sooner or later.

there are people around you who love and care about you.

we do, too.

and we are always here, for you.

take your time but never hold back in life, alright?

time doesn't wait, you told me that :)

but we'll wait for you, to get back on track.

take care brother.

x

" It will be fine," I hear my brain whisper softly to my heart.

Crying would feel good, but I can't muster a single sob.

I wade through my pain with a bittersweet smile on my lips.

i will be fine :)

converse in BM*

i sorta lost my way while finding my friend's condo today.

i was pointing here and there showing directions while my friend was giving directions over the phone.

i heard the taxi driver complaining about my broken malay.

'i don't know mana itu condo eh...'

'i never datang here before..'

'uncle......i i i i i, hold on, i call my kawan!'

'uncle, sini sini! turn sini!'

'selepas itu traffic light, go straight.'

'you stop sini, i go down tanya directions.'

ok, very broken meh? still understandable la!

anyway, i made it to her place with a lil pricey taxi fare after spending half an hour in da taxi :p

Hi!

now i know how it looks like.

cute :)

my life, His song.

whose hands are these

holding my trapeze when i fly

You carry me

whose eyes are these watching over me

eyes of love that set me free

unafraid what's ahead
You are always there before
my whole world Your design
You are always there just right behind

my life, Your song.

i find it easy to praise and worship during good times.

and i've learned to praise and worship even during hard times :)

trust me, it's not hard at all.

when there is a surrendered heart :)

plenty of people asked me if i am afraid.

not really.

i am not afraid of it because i know i am going to be fine :)

i am going to laugh again, i am going to jump around again.

i am going to smile and say that i am okay.

so, have some faith in me, will you?

when the stage is bare tonight there’s no one else

just You and me

when the curtains close behind there’s no pretense

i’m on my knees

i will lay down my life for the love sacrifice You gave to me

Your heart beats within me

as You are, so are we

♥

who doesn't love him?

so, that's it.

we had great time updating each other bout life and stuffs.

though it was only 2 pathetic days.

but i am happy :)

i miss the cracking lame jokes!

he is

a brother who i will keep for the rest of my life :)

NGIAM,

you said you gonna bring me out for dried noodles everyday when i am back home.

keep your words! :)

要 不要

有时候 要 是一种奢侈

很想 要

但是 停下脚步想一想

想了好久

哭了好久

放空了好久

我想 我 不要 了

我不敢 要

所以 我选择 不要

会不开心好久好久

但总比失去来得好

我会 微笑

带着我的决定生活

有一天

my melbito love :)

i love you and see you in spring :)

brother Ngiam :)

talked about old days and realized how far we are from then.

i still remember the days when you left to US.

the days and nights we talked about our dreams.

the moments you made me laughed mad.

you tennis superstar big bully!

never seen you for a year and yet you are still the same.

i feel so secured when you are here. you make me feel like home is not far from me.

not merely highschool buddies, are we?

of course not, more than that. BROTHER :)

i can't believe that you actually made me called you DAD today.

aiseh. you wait la.

'see! i told you that i know you more than you know me.'

i seriously hate this sentence. you don't repeat it anymore.

it makes me feel like i'm not a good friend.

i promise.

*cross my heart*

i've learnt to fake a smile

and say

I am okay.

:)

where does she go?

why did you change so much? i feel like i don't know you anymore.

screw kl! see what it turns you into?

return me my Zoe can or not?

where is the girl who used to smile and laugh a lot?

where is the girl who always tells me that things gonna be fine?

where is that girl who fears of nothing and always talks about her dreams?

can you tell me where did you hide my Zoe?!?

i paused and went silence, for very long.

she called, i cried after i heard her calling my name.

darling, i will not leave you alone.

i promise.

that was the last thing i heard, before i fell asleep.

:)

not anybody's heart

if i tell you that i am not mad,

i am lying.

what is wrong with you?

after years of knowing you and you did this.

do you know that you disappointed me?

you said you didn't mean to.

you said i wouldn't understand.

i once thought you were someone who i could trust my life with.

not anymore.

not anymore.

not anymore.

what am i supposed to do with you?

you tell me.

btw, a heart is not meant to be broken.

and the heart that you broke, it wasn't just anybody's heart.

it was mine.