feel like i am like a robot recently.
programmed.
the same routine everyday.
i've got no life!
i need a break!!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
i did mention about this to a few of close friends recently.
and it is sort of an open secret between mermaids and i.. for years. xp
LOL.
alrights, here comes the old grandma story.
back to about 7 years ago, when i was only 14.. i had this huge crush on a guy. we went to the same tuition centre, which ws my most fav place cos there was where i could see him. haha.
and hmmmm...... ...... .....
i can't remember which year was it, most probably when i was in form2, my school was the main organisor for this mssm swimming competition thingie and as asual, mermaids and i were the selected or appointed few ones to help out in events(we're forever busy. haha. glamorous MERMAIDS!). this guy was in the competition too, he represented miri^^
and and and.. the three days event gave me the opportunity to really have a good look at him. and so happened that one of my friends who is also a representative swimmer for miri went and told him about my crush on him on the second day. >.<
but but but.. i really thanked her for doing so. lol. it was because... something happened laa on the third day.. HAHAHA. and as i could recalled, i was so happy. yeah, just happy!
the story just stopped there after that. he did not take further actions and so didn't i. pathetic.
the last time i saw him was after i graduated from high school, bumped into him in a shopping complex back in hometown. and the last time i heard about him was he was studying in uk, his family immigrated to somewhere in arab.
something brought him back to my memories months ago and i tried everything, just to find him. i even googled him, asked around my friends... but i just couldn't get track of him. kind of give up already la, finding someone who i barely know is just HAIH...
until yesterday, i tried facebook and i FOUND him.
HAHAHAHA.
was so happy. not that i still have the HUGE crush on him, it's just the happiness that somehow i finally found someone who i've been looking for... what should i call this...hmmm..sort of a childhood memory? i guess so. glad to know that he is doing well back in uk. =)))
i thank God for everyone in my life, including you who is reading this. somehow somewhere down the path of my life, some of you might leave me for whatever reason it is.. i breathe a lil prayer, i pray that God will bless you, protect you for every harm that may come your way. bless you, heart you.
and it is sort of an open secret between mermaids and i.. for years. xp
LOL.
alrights, here comes the old grandma story.
back to about 7 years ago, when i was only 14.. i had this huge crush on a guy. we went to the same tuition centre, which ws my most fav place cos there was where i could see him. haha.
and hmmmm...... ...... .....
i can't remember which year was it, most probably when i was in form2, my school was the main organisor for this mssm swimming competition thingie and as asual, mermaids and i were the selected or appointed few ones to help out in events(we're forever busy. haha. glamorous MERMAIDS!). this guy was in the competition too, he represented miri^^
and and and.. the three days event gave me the opportunity to really have a good look at him. and so happened that one of my friends who is also a representative swimmer for miri went and told him about my crush on him on the second day. >.<
but but but.. i really thanked her for doing so. lol. it was because... something happened laa on the third day.. HAHAHA. and as i could recalled, i was so happy. yeah, just happy!
the story just stopped there after that. he did not take further actions and so didn't i. pathetic.
the last time i saw him was after i graduated from high school, bumped into him in a shopping complex back in hometown. and the last time i heard about him was he was studying in uk, his family immigrated to somewhere in arab.
something brought him back to my memories months ago and i tried everything, just to find him. i even googled him, asked around my friends... but i just couldn't get track of him. kind of give up already la, finding someone who i barely know is just HAIH...
until yesterday, i tried facebook and i FOUND him.
HAHAHAHA.
was so happy. not that i still have the HUGE crush on him, it's just the happiness that somehow i finally found someone who i've been looking for... what should i call this...hmmm..sort of a childhood memory? i guess so. glad to know that he is doing well back in uk. =)))
i thank God for everyone in my life, including you who is reading this. somehow somewhere down the path of my life, some of you might leave me for whatever reason it is.. i breathe a lil prayer, i pray that God will bless you, protect you for every harm that may come your way. bless you, heart you.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
hectic week.
college in the day time. serving in apostolic prog in the night time.
been rushing here and there for past few days and i am real exhausted.
and the weather, sigh.
met a minor car accident few days ago. SIEN.
and horr... my eyebags never leave me since college started. SIGH LOUD LOUD.
frankly speaking, i've tried my best to drag myself to college since the start of the semester.
and i did, at least attended most of the lectures and all the tutorials and practicals.
i have never been so rajin before. HAHA.
assignments are on their way. SIGH.
my no life kind of life is coming back looo.
did kinda badly for last semester's assignments, no high scores at all >.<
DRAW NEAR TO GOD AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU.
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE.
wonderful promises of God!
(V)(V)(V)
upcoming things-to-do:
**another week of apostolic prog
** practicum confirmation for 3rd semester
**assignments assignments assignments
**missing you xD
college in the day time. serving in apostolic prog in the night time.
been rushing here and there for past few days and i am real exhausted.
and the weather, sigh.
met a minor car accident few days ago. SIEN.
and horr... my eyebags never leave me since college started. SIGH LOUD LOUD.
frankly speaking, i've tried my best to drag myself to college since the start of the semester.
and i did, at least attended most of the lectures and all the tutorials and practicals.
i have never been so rajin before. HAHA.
assignments are on their way. SIGH.
my no life kind of life is coming back looo.
did kinda badly for last semester's assignments, no high scores at all >.<
DRAW NEAR TO GOD AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU.
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE.
wonderful promises of God!
(V)(V)(V)
upcoming things-to-do:
**another week of apostolic prog
** practicum confirmation for 3rd semester
**assignments assignments assignments
**missing you xD
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
went shopping these few days.
as im so free. *<*
not much things to buy.
couldn't see anything that i really feel like buying.
still..spent quite a lot..
did some shopping for mum and sis.
im a good daughter and sister lohh~
and got a pair of shoes for myself. x.x
the kind of shoes that i would rather cry whole day than wearing them on my feet when i was young. HAHA. mum gonna scream when she sees them.
i used to hate that kind of shoes when i was young... don't know why. just hate it.
but as i grow older...maturer actually. HAHA. i've fallen in love with this kinda shoes.
i know it looks kinda old school but H-E-Y old school ROCKSS!
LOL!
ohh..and a shirt which got a HUGE prints on the front.
how does it look it?
you'll know when you see la lohh~
it's just nice. not that kind of tops that i usually wear...
it's kind of..mmm.. COLORFUL?
and colorful socks!
a few pairs of them.
i know people gonna be like.. WHAT?!? u thought u still young meh!?!
well, i like ah! im still a kid ah! cannot meh!
smack me!
HAHA.
need to go and shop for intake11 AGAIN!
i HEART apostolic prog lots!
it means time to go shopping again. LOL.
though i need to get only formal clothes and those semi-formal ones...
well..spending money makes me feel good in a way.
smack me again!
by the way...
i wanna share a secret here.
shhhhhhhh~
only between us.
i am the kind of WOMAN
that when my feet hit the floor each morning
the devil says ' ohh crap, she's up!'
wink*
yes, i am now a WOMAN.
yes, i've got the authority which is given by my Father in heaven
that the devil will flee when i am around. *AMEN loud loud*
as im so free. *<*
not much things to buy.
couldn't see anything that i really feel like buying.
still..spent quite a lot..
did some shopping for mum and sis.
im a good daughter and sister lohh~
and got a pair of shoes for myself. x.x
the kind of shoes that i would rather cry whole day than wearing them on my feet when i was young. HAHA. mum gonna scream when she sees them.
i used to hate that kind of shoes when i was young... don't know why. just hate it.
but as i grow older...maturer actually. HAHA. i've fallen in love with this kinda shoes.
i know it looks kinda old school but H-E-Y old school ROCKSS!
LOL!
ohh..and a shirt which got a HUGE prints on the front.
how does it look it?
you'll know when you see la lohh~
it's just nice. not that kind of tops that i usually wear...
it's kind of..mmm.. COLORFUL?
and colorful socks!
a few pairs of them.
i know people gonna be like.. WHAT?!? u thought u still young meh!?!
well, i like ah! im still a kid ah! cannot meh!
smack me!
HAHA.
need to go and shop for intake11 AGAIN!
i HEART apostolic prog lots!
it means time to go shopping again. LOL.
though i need to get only formal clothes and those semi-formal ones...
well..spending money makes me feel good in a way.
smack me again!
by the way...
i wanna share a secret here.
shhhhhhhh~
only between us.
i am the kind of WOMAN
that when my feet hit the floor each morning
the devil says ' ohh crap, she's up!'
wink*
yes, i am now a WOMAN.
yes, i've got the authority which is given by my Father in heaven
that the devil will flee when i am around. *AMEN loud loud*
诚实地想你
世界忽然变形 忽然很安静
无助的我一秒间 失去重心
听你不停为我担心 看你不停离我而去
你 要我照顾自己
是我做了什麽 让天使生气
还是忘了做什麽 幸福远离
也许该要真的相信 有种爱叫远远关心
痛 却又哽住呼吸
我 用狂奔 用无力 用恶梦 去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没半点权利决定
我 用痛哭 用回忆 用深爱 去想你
去体会什麽是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气 诚实地想你
是不是 担心 我怕黑不敢前进
那颗 本来没坠落的流星
才拼命烧亮了自己
a song that i got from a friend this morning.
it truly describes my feelings.
anyway
it's gonna be alright.
无助的我一秒间 失去重心
听你不停为我担心 看你不停离我而去
你 要我照顾自己
是我做了什麽 让天使生气
还是忘了做什麽 幸福远离
也许该要真的相信 有种爱叫远远关心
痛 却又哽住呼吸
我 用狂奔 用无力 用恶梦 去想你
我讨厌命运骄傲的神情
嘲笑我没半点权利决定
我 用痛哭 用回忆 用深爱 去想你
去体会什麽是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇气 诚实地想你
是不是 担心 我怕黑不敢前进
那颗 本来没坠落的流星
才拼命烧亮了自己
a song that i got from a friend this morning.
it truly describes my feelings.
anyway
it's gonna be alright.
Monday, October 6, 2008
God says
everything's gonna be alright.
He is my peace in the darkness, my peace in the ragging sea.
He is my comfort through every brokenness.
my shelter in every storm.
God says
zoe is not a mistake.
His plan for my future has always been filled with hope because He loves me with an everlasting love.
His thoughts toward me are countless as the sand on the seashore.
He desires to lavish His love on me simply because i am His child and He is my Father.
i gonna shine bright like never before.
for God.
i gonna surrender, all-out for God like never before.
like what Jesus did.
i gonna live for God, my one and only.
the one who loves me from the very begining.
i promise.
cheers.
love Jesus (=
everything's gonna be alright.
He is my peace in the darkness, my peace in the ragging sea.
He is my comfort through every brokenness.
my shelter in every storm.
God says
zoe is not a mistake.
His plan for my future has always been filled with hope because He loves me with an everlasting love.
His thoughts toward me are countless as the sand on the seashore.
He desires to lavish His love on me simply because i am His child and He is my Father.
i gonna shine bright like never before.
for God.
i gonna surrender, all-out for God like never before.
like what Jesus did.
i gonna live for God, my one and only.
the one who loves me from the very begining.
i promise.
cheers.
love Jesus (=
Friday, October 3, 2008
have been keeping diary since 10th april 2008.
a story, which ended long ago.
a story, which i still wish to keep it going in my dreamland.
it's only a story.
going on.
moving on.
life goes on.
that's what everyone keeps on telling me.
perhaps
i am still as naive as ever.
i am still the same old me.
just that i do not cry anymore.
just that i lost my smiles and replace them with fake ones.
it has been a while since i last told you that..
I MISS YOU.
xoxo
a story, which ended long ago.
a story, which i still wish to keep it going in my dreamland.
it's only a story.
going on.
moving on.
life goes on.
that's what everyone keeps on telling me.
perhaps
i am still as naive as ever.
i am still the same old me.
just that i do not cry anymore.
just that i lost my smiles and replace them with fake ones.
it has been a while since i last told you that..
I MISS YOU.
xoxo
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