a lot of people told me that i've changed a lot since the start of this semester.
i am conscious about it and i've tried to maintain the changes that i've made in myself.


i no longer a short-tempered person.
i tell myself to keep, keep all the anger only to myself.
i become an emotional person.
i cry, i cry a lot in front of those i loved.


i am just so-not-zoe.
some say i've grown up to be maturer.
some say it's a good change in me.
some say i've came to know the real facts of life.
i don't want.
seriously.
it is just so weird to not to be myself.


i've learned a lot throughout this period of time.
though this sem hasn't come to an end yet...
i've learned a lot, a lot.
relationship with God, family, friends...
i stumble a lot, and it hurts.
i chose to keep it all, i chose to learn, i chose to let go...


mermaids say i am no longer the zoe they know.
i am kind of like detached from them.
the kind of life we used to enjoyed, indulged in.
no longer mine.
they are just so far far away from me, in a way.
still, we're besties ever.
still, they love me and pamper me as how i do to them.


i am miserable.
in front of crossroads, deciding which are the roads that shouldn't have to be taken.
someone please, decide for me.