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yes.
i am back in kL.
couldn't really get used to it.
the environment. emptiness overwhelmed me.
a lot of things to be done yet my lazy bones are just way too heavy.
i miss home, very much.
it takes me courage to even step out of the house now.
maybe i need to be numb at times.
it’s like a defibrillator that shocks the heart to stop it for a while.
to give it a chance to beat again.
alone, on its own.


i am smiling (=