at the crossroad again.

it's either stay or leave, right?
correct me if i'm wrong :)

msned/talked with a few classmates last night.
seemed like everyone already has an idea in mind of what to do next.
it's either staying back for advance diploma or credits transfer to other colleges or universities.
apparently, they are sort of 'decided' huh.

my current answer is...
' yeah, im going to HELP.'
that's the most secured answer i think.
i am not-so-decided yet.
90% HELP.. i guess so. since there are some of YOU guys are going there, why not?
HAHA.
i still need friends to go with me...


i couldn't find the courage which brought me all the way from miri to kl 4years ago.
where are you my COURAGE?!?
where are you, COURAGE!?!?


people asked me, have you ever regretted over anything?
yes, i did regret for wasting my two years doing stpm
but i've learned to be independent.
yes, i did regret trusting over someone who doesn't worth it
but i've learned my lessons.
yes, i did regret for wasting too much time on people who doesn't deserve it
but i've now found the one who deserves it.
yes, i did regret for not listening to my parents
but i've learned to love them more as time passed.
yes, i did regret for being too childish/naive/rebellious
but i've grown into someone my parents expected me to be and i'm proud of who i am.

i do regret over a lot of things, but as i walk down the road, i give thanks.

once, daddy told me that i've grown from his little girl to his heart attack.
one day, dad, as you walk me down the aisle during my big day, it will be the moment you are most proud of me. i promise :)


HAHA.
i know this post is kind of random.
i neither know what is in my mind. kinda messy tho.
pardon me k.
im at the crossroad, yet to decide which path to take :)
yet, i am emo no more.

love you all out there who love me!
OxOx