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she left me still. left me alone in tears.

i miss, every moment that i spent with her and every laughter she brought to us.

i miss you, Rainbow.

i was never a good mama. i know.

time to let Naughty go as well? NO.

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they called and asked me out.

instead of staying in the house staring at the empty cage and browsing the pics i took with her, i decided to get out of the house.

i thought it was just another ordinary night.

later then i figured out that they were trying hard to cheer me up, real hard.

until i laughed real hard.

i decided not to go home and stayed out whole night.

i know there are people who were worrying sick about me.

im fine :)

i just need a lil some time.

someone asked me the other day, why do you never smile and laugh so often anymore?

i answered, because there is nothing worth smiling and laughing at anymore.

yes.

i grow colder at heart, tougher in character and wearing a mask.

after the betrayal of trust.