moving out moving on.

been throwing away tons of stuffs. stuffs that i keep for decades for i-don't-know-why.
clearing out all the stuffs under my bed and some from the wardrobe.
i threw most of them away. i should have done it long ago, the day when i decided to move on.
seeing those things which once meant a lot to the 'us' that time, things that you bought and things that i used to like. i feel nothing and i threw them all away. no hard feelings k? just that i figure out i need to just move on, not by keeping all these things still but throw them all away. you know why, because i have moved on since the day you drove all the way up to genting and wanted to talk. we're done. and please, stop pretending that we are still all well and cool and still friends. NO, i am telling you that we are NOT. i know you are reading this and i am doing all good, moved on, smiling bright :) i am much better without you.

i was just being polite to reply your msn once in a while and please do stop calling/texting me. you know why. because i don't want to talk to you ever again. you said you will move on and please do! have you not caused me enough pain? it took me a long while to recover and i am all good now. i am good and there is no way back to the beginning. i threw away the past as well :)


talking about shifting house. it is more than just a pain in the ass. packing up and cleaning nearly took my life :( i've done half of the cleaning and packing today. hopefully i am able to get everything done by tomorrow. argh, sick. migraine and skin allergy. mathafarkarr.


oh by the way, i need RED bedsheet desperately. anyone kind enough to buy me one? *watery puppy eyes*
LOL. okay, i know i am asking for too much :p i just cant seem to get enough of gorgeous off-white furniture and pair them with RED :)

awww :D

i was screaming mad when i entered my room and saw the postcard on my lappy!

awwww! i just simply love it :D

i love you the most when you were in Istanbul writing this postcard to me!

hahahha. 

and i love the charming gorgeous stamps soooo much!

terima kasih.

Kuku J (:

p/s: i haven't get that nape piercing YET!

back to college.

went back to college this late afternoon and found out that i actually miss my cute kiddies so much.

yeah, i guess i just miss that busy life packed up with assignments and deadlines. i have to stop complaining this semester i guess BUT i've already started complaining. Wednesdays and Fridays are gonna be so gloomy from next week onwards :<

L4-ians reunite (:
new semester thesis preps tougher assignments and sports.
nabeh, im already feeling old and tired when i think of all that.
how nice if i am 2years younger. haha.

还是会害怕

还是会

还是会

还是会

还是会

还是会

还是会




你说你一直都会在
但你都不在


大骗子


:( :( :( :( :(

你说你会乖
我相信

不要让我失望 (:

TWO MORE MONTHS :)

and 

i'm gonna be home.

pa and ma, im an adult already! nono candle blowing and make a wish!
heehee. been thinking where to have my big day dinner with you all.
Zoe'll get the bill this year :)

--------------------------------

anyway, yesterday was kind of a fun-day-out.

except for the lunch thingie at Heritage House, bad service :(

good movie, cute people.

nice catching up with HELP-ians :p

im anticipating for the next one.

let's NEROFICO it!

it was definitely a great night with great music and great people.

awesome.

somehow i wish i could played drums/guitar like that.

hahaha.

nahh, i am too lazy and i know that.

yeah quite fcuk up.

with breakouts everywhere on my face and skin allergy.

>_____________________<

not good. 

i teared when nicole called me today.

i didn't want to talk to anyone but a simple 'hello' made me teared.

i miss the time when i could jumped around and talked about dreams.

college is starting soon.

finally.

let's hope for a better one this time round :)

replacement.

someone's so damn right.
I only know how to magnify my negative feelings towards others.

I started to hate myself now.

afterall, I am just a replacement :(

and you know what
someday i am just gonna cut myself off from you
就像断线的风筝一样
不再让你找到我

给 恩宁

要坚强  因为我认识的恩宁 是坚强的

可以哭泣 不要太久 

可以难过 我让你靠

好多好多的无奈

会不开心

但是 这样才会长大

我怀念

我们的无话不说

我怀念

我们一起做梦

我怀念

我们争吵以后 心比以前更贴近

不要害怕

因为 我都在

一直都在

为你祷告

爱你 :)

6more days to go.

and so

we have

Disorders of Childhood & Adolescence

Physiological Psychology

Sport Psychology

Motivation and Emotion

and 

preps for THESIS.






most importantly

we don't have tutorial classes in the timetable.

i wonder if its that hard for SSSH admin to come out with a complete timetable.

what an interesting semester.

so he has got himself a pair of wings!

such a perfect day to get fashion wounds :)

i ran away when the tattoo artist first started cos i couldn't bear the sound the tattoo machine made.

>___< sorry.

nabehhh i went back after 40mins with a cup of starbucks hor.

anywayss, i don't think i dare to tatt my bod anymore after seeing the whole process.

ewwkkfully pain, seriously.

reported live by,

Zoe :p

happy Mother's day!

was discussing bout it the other day.
someone said this is gross.
 but i think it looks cool lor. 

staplers ae! how cool is that =P

*coughsss*

anyway,

SCREW THE DAMN DOOR!

=( =( =(

okay i know it sounds funny to get mad at a DOOR!

but, i am just mad la. 

ah well,
overall today was good.
donated quite an amount for C+C event at The Curve =)
SOMEONE jumped out from nowhere and forced me to donate *aheemm*
and Ikea after that *majorlovessssss*
i love furniture shopping and it makes me happy =D
i feel like its finally a home now =))

miss this lil princess so much!

love her expressions.

must keep all and show her when she grows up!

=D

so cute!

being Zoe again.

i want to eat ice cream.

i want to hang out with my friends.

i am hunger for another weekend escapade.

i need money.

i want to eat salmon.

i want to try horseback riding once i'm back in shape.

i want to go to Cameron.

i want to go on a roller coaster ride and scream.

i want to go back to college.

i want to hug my sister.

i want to go to Universal Studio SG.

i want to laugh like nobody's business.

i want to go home.

i am longing to go to zoo.

i want to talk to Claire.

i am craving for pringles.

i want to go fly kite.

i need a maid at home.

i miss jungle trekking/mountain climbing/caving.

i miss going to camps.

i want to go to Royal Melbourne Show.

i want to go backpack again, maybe Tibet.

i need lame jokes.

i want hugs.

i miss you and i want you to be here now!

>______________________________________________<

ok i know that i am greedy!

p/s: it's Day152 :)

原来参杂了承诺的友情
是不快乐的

因为
期望和失望是成正比的

不要答应我任何事
因为我会比任何人都认真

你可能不知道
在你答应我的那一刻起
我已经失望了


不为什么
只是 我不够勇敢

untitled --

the fear overwhelmed me, this morning.
knowing what was going to happen and experiencing it are totally two different things.
there were too many what ifs ringing in my head.
what if.

i slept.
longer than i supposed to.
i had weird dreams.
i saw people standing around me.
some crying, some staring at me.
i tried to reach out to them, i couldn't.
they ignored me.
woke up from that long sleep, with tears on my cheeks.

i feel good.
to be alive again.

i keep my words :)

i am freaking tired but contented :)

current mode: mad nervous.

good night world :)

静静地陪我
一下下  好不好
我还是会怕
还是会




我还是会选择相信你
就算是假的

转身要比眼泪快

我做到了

等到不痛了
我就回来

你要乖

好好照顾自己

你要记得快乐 :)

been having momentary fantasies that my CTRL Z shortcut for life had worked.
i wish i could press the CTRL Z repeatedly to undo the damage and erase cringeful moments.