what's next?

a lot of people have been asking me when's my next trip.

well.
soon! *proud*


after a 2weeks break.
there are a fewdays short break coming up :)


and no rest after that until mid sept.
im resting for the coming up hecticness :)


Bangkok, im counting down!
omg omg omg.
i gonna shop till drop!

and Hatyai in october, most probably :D
another round of shopping.


any suggestions for november?

haha.guess what?
Bangkok and Chiangmai in December :D


m planning my trip schedule till next year.
its my 22nd and it's the right time to travel.
why?
because i say so!


:D

what's wrong?

something is wrong.
i think.

thought it was just the change of weather at first.
my skins on both my legs are peeling off :(
then my feet are swollen.

later then i thought it is because im havng period.
my tummy is bloated :(
my feet went numbed after i sit for more than half an hour.
tend to fall down when i walk..like losing balance.
and my vision goes blur sometimes.
continuous headache and migraine :(

those are signs of getting old hor?

im bit worried.
maybe an appointment with doctor when im not that busy.


sigh.
so sien.
aku mau cry!

she called it more than a blessed day :)

the 3hours were suffocating.


Jesus, i knew it!
You did it on purpose, right?
HAHA. caught ya!


i thank You for the 3hours.
there is no other 3hours like this :)

i thank You for the girl in the car.
it has been long since we last stuck together, only the two of us :)

i thank You for the people waited at pwtc.
they have so much patience to wait. they just waited :)

i thank You for the uncle.
i've learned my lessons :)

i thank You for the truck.
i know it's from You! led me out of the fearfulness :)

i thank You for the assurance.
it was so real, so real. it was real :)

and i thank You, for giving me a chance, to scream out for Your name again.
it has been a while, since i last did that.

and that has been my prayer, all this while.
though it did not feel so good at first, but it was classic :)


i thank You,
for Your grace and mercy :)



psssstt! the girl in the car, thank you for being there when i needed you the most :)

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Serina's leaving later, at 320pm.

to New Jersey via Taipei.

gonna miss her.

take great carre of yourself darling!

bring an angmoh back!

p/s: the girl in the car, thank you for being there when i needed you the most :)

Serina bids sayornara.

woke up late in the noon.
jojo sent me a link, VitaminC's Graduation(Friends Forever).
i love the lyrics and somehow, it inspired me to get my fingers on something that has already been left behind long ago.
haha. something for S-E-R-I-N-A only.



i thank God for having her in my past two years.
she is indeed the hot chic that always turned me on. *get it right okay?*



she gonna go live with her mum in us!!
T.T
gonna miss you NewJersey CHIC!

* i love you hun!*

*take great care of yourself kay?*

*remember to participate in Chinese Pageant in US :) *

*we share the same puffy eyes*

*RAWWRRR*

the gang?
some were missing though.

distance makes our heart grow fonder, indeed.

the FINAL four :)
always us.

im sick.
i think i am.
hot and cold.
fever and coughs.
wisdom tooth is aching :(
painkiller doesn't work at all.


feel like want to bang my head against the wall!
ggrrrrrrrrr`````


any remedy?
sigh.


i need to be there tomorrow.
she's leaving soon.
ain't gonna see her for quite a long time i think.
i need to be there!

pain doesn't allow me to sleep though.
:( how?





p/s: i miss the chilling weather.

who says it's impossible to jump in Melbourne :)

St.Kilda.

something to say.

i remember, when we were back from Kangaroo Island.
that particular night. i was in kinda bad mood.
i didn't talk throughout the dinner and walked home in barefeet.
stopped by a pharmacy to grab panadol.
i was in pain. migraine and wisdom toothache.
it took my smile away. even my patience.


i ignored nk's friends at home.
yeah, totally. i was in the mood of i-just-want-to-be-myself.



i remember, you guys sort of scolded me in the car while we were on our way to Barossa Valley on the next day.


you said, 'you are not the same person anymore that i know 5years ago.'
you said, 'why are you unfriendly towards them?'
you said, 'why did you change so much?'
you said, 'you are like a stranger to us.'
you said, 'i don't know you anymore.'
you said, 'you are having bias towards nk's friends.'
you scolded, 'you should have see how you behave!'



i didn't really defend myself.
because you don't know.


you don't know what have i been through all this while.
you don't know how much i've been suffered throughout the months.
you don't know how much hurt i got.
you weren't here when i needed you the most.
you weren't here to see how much i bled.
you weren't here to see how badly i fell.
you weren't here to see how i lost my faith in believing people.



i've learnt to build up a wall around myself, to protect myself from being harm.
i've learnt not to trust people easily, because it reminds me of the hurts i've been through.



have you been wondered why i chose such a time to take a break?
i was there, to seek the trust that we've built since years back.
i was there, to find the hope in friendship.
i was there, wanted to prove to myself that friendship doesn't fade as time passed.
but hearts do grow fonder.
i was there, believing that old friends are always there for me.
that you will never betray me.



obviously, you don't understand.
it's okay. it's really okay.
old friends, are always and still my source of comfort :)


i thankyou, for being there, for me.

a pain in the ass.

the pain is just so irritating.
FCUK!


cant it just go away?
leave me alone, i just need a rest!
a simple rest!


what shall i call it?
insomnia or jetlag?
i have been trying to sleep at normal hours since i got back.
i've tried really hard.
i slept at 10pm and woke up at 2am.
forced myself to sleep again and woke up around 6am.
and i doubled my alcohol intake yesterday and i managed to stay until 4am.
and woke up at 8am, continued my sleep at 10am and woke up again at 1pm.


what now? i woke up at 130am.
moaning in pain.
gawtt damn it migraine and toothache.
painkillers dont work at all!

i miss Aussie :(

somehow i just miss the life back there.
trying to keep everything the same.


i bought bananas, to eat as breakfast, which i did in melbourne.
i eat vege everyday.
healthy food basically.
it's my way of missing you all.
not so lame afterall right.


browsing through the videos.
again and again.
looking at the pictures.
i wonder when can we all meet up and go siao like that again.
not long in the future?
i wish.
where would it gonna be?
Gold Coast? NZ? Taiwan?
looking forward to the day :)



thankyouuu
CHLOE
COLIN
MATTHEW
LYDIA
YI-ZHEN
KAH-HORNG
ANDY
for the great hospitality.
for enduring my badtemper.
for waking me up in the mornings.
for taking care of me especially in eating the right food at the right time.


i know it's hard to tolerate with a weirdo like me.
haha. quicktempered and very macam-macam.


the road trips and trips and treats and treats and bday surprises.


the whole 2weeks were a blast!
winter doesn't cool the love off :D


p/s : im still thinking about Harbourtown in Adelaide :(

it's hot in kl :(

erlohaaa, im back from vacation.

adelaide was cool.
kangaroo island was cool.
melbourne was cool.
mount buller was cool.


im doing pretty good other than coughs and boneache :)
not even half of the h1n1 symptoms.
so everything is cool.


my fingers and feet got kinda swollen the day i touched down.
which was pretty annoying. they're getting better i think.
excuses to buy new shoes? perhaps.


gosh. i miss aussie, seriously.
miss the carefree life there.
chloe and colin took care of everything while i was in adelaide.
andy took care of us well too.

lydia and kah horng and yi zhen took care of stuffs while i was in melbourne too.
so did andy.
ughh. i just miss the carefree life there.
and the weather!
i want winter in msia too, may i?


the 2weeks off were a blast.
meeting up friends was a blast.
bday in winter was a blast.
snowmountain was a blast though i didnt ski or snowboard.
drinking wine like drinking water was definitely a blast too!


oh my oh myy...
i could hear the wine in the kitchen calling out for my name!

current location.


teehee.
not alone.
kah horng is playing games in his room:)
i love today...cos i slept til 2pm!

say hi to monday!

i love my monday :D


my very first time back to pavilion since cny!
it had changed much.



and i love the sun :)
love the people who were there with me.

i love you

you love me

to you; the girl i met at poolside.

im glad.
that you remember me, when you need a shoulder to lean on.
and i give thanks for that :)


there is always a season for everything.
and, always a reason behind it.

no matter what is the reason, God's love is the answer for it all.
His grace is more than enough and it is freely give :)


i took a long time, to let go and re-settled down my heart.
long enough. longer than i thought i would take.
i used to lazed in bed for few days, not doing anything.
having the thought that how nice if i could just vanished and no one could trace me.
but i was so wrong.

we are here, for a reason.
believe it or not.
God wants us to learn. it is a definite answer that He could just help us within even a blink of eyes BUT He wants us to learn, to grow :)

whatever you desired, is already at the cross, since the moment Jesus died for us.
it is freely give and it is always there.
it is not the matter of you deserved it or not, but it's about whether you WANT it or not.
you deserved every good thing on earth even in heaven since the moment Jesus was crucified on the cross.

i used to think that i'm not worthy also.
for all Jesus did for me. and i was so wrong.
i skipped church, i did every bad thing that i could.
just to get the satisfactions out of it and proved that i'm still alive.
i was taking the wrong path tho.

after a long while, i decided to just take a step backwards, to where i started to get astray of.
and that very little step backwards with a lil mustard seed faith, i fell into the love of God again.
He assured me of His love, and His promises.
with that assurance, i know that i know, i'm secured in His arms.

what about you?
are you going to take that little step back to Him with your little mustard seed faith?
as i've told you, it's up to you to choose.
and lemme know if you've chosen to take the step like i did.
i will walk it together with you :)


love you much!
you're precious to me, never worthless.

before, the sunset :)

woke up duper early todayy.
not to do assignment but was on a mission!

tadaaaaaa!

i was very syioksendiri-ing.

*ignore the puffy eyes*

happy because i was there again, for the 2nd time.

last time was only a visit but

it's for real this time.


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here!
with natalie :)


she's entering ICOM finally :)
so so so happy for her.
after 8months of working life,
here she is back to college again!
taking vocal as her principle subject :)
a superstar to be!


we stayed and chitchatted with bear for quite a while.
and there we go..

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to change some currency.
haha.
i super need it.
call me a filthy rich bitch @@

the day was hot.
we nearly pengsan on our way back home in the lrt
and
she was kind enough to let auntieZoe to sit :)
but she was very unhappy
because
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i REST my feet on her shoes!
haha.
so kind of her.
love you!

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am now back home, couching in sofa and watch drama.

another relaxing day, before the sunset.

because,

assignments are lining up!

but,

God is the strength of my heart :)