suffocating.

have I told you before that I am very worried about the upcoming statistics and politics paper? yes, I thought it would be quite an experience. my first time resiting papers in 3years. I tried to fool around, joked around, laughing loud..I tried everything to keep myself from it but still I am worried. I couldn't believe that I've forgotten everything about stats, which I've learned months ago. Well, I sucks at maths, I admit it. so what now?

I am suffocating. I was thinking about it all night. I wonder what keeps me going on all these years. I do grow weary at times but never something like this now.
I feel like going home, now.