woke up early today.
Xuan  is gonna sit for her last paper later and she's going back hometown after that.
for good, she said.
she's graduating.

what about me?
im gonna have the room to myself for quite some time and i seriously *dislike* that.
the feeling of being alone and having no one to talk to at night.
no more watching drama bersama-sama, no more pillow talk :(

i am already missing her before she leave.
argh.
i needa find a way to fill up that emptiness.
i gonna miss her so much :s

baby sister called and told me that she had nightmare last night and she is wide awake until now.
crying over the phone.
i don't know what i can do other than listening to her and tearing quietly.
i miss her, a lot.
babe, you just need some time to adapt to it. it's just life :)
i whispered in my heart.
coming back soon right darling? i am going to see you in a couple of weeks time.
be strong :)

hung up the phone and i started to wonder how is my today gonna be.
another day with routines or another day dead in bed.
how nice, if i could sobbed the pain away.