Sunday evening; raining.

don't be like this la. after everything is over then it will be dolphin time :)

i still remember this, clearly.
it rings in my head, every now and then when i am burnt/stressed out.
there were...memorable moments which i used to have.
but somehow i was stupid enough to ruin it all.

anyhow, i did it by myself.
i went to dolphin show myself.
i went to fly kite by myself.
i went to the beach, by myself.
i brought along all the promises.
just that they were all without you in them.

getting blue during a rainy evening.
how naive was i back then.
to stand in the rain and let the tears ran down my cheek.
i laughed a little at myself and begged myself to grow up.

i miss my teddy, my red teddy. very much.
it was and still is my favorite teddy.
it used to go everywhere with me.
just like how you did.
someone who was always there when i needed someone.
i've passed the teddy on, however.
it's a loyal teddy though.
it will accompany you throughout all the cold nights when emptiness strikes.
treasure it, alright? :)

i've learnt.

i am not hiding. i just sort of decided to get up and get out.

i've stripped off layers of masks and started everything anew.

sooner or later, i'll be fine. just fine.

there are much more to achieve/gain in life. 

not just those which i could see with my eyes now.

i know :)

i know, my future is indeed in good hands.