this year's christmas, not so merry after all.
presents, are not exactly what i want.

kind of VERY disappointed when i get to know that i can't go home for cny.
guess that makes my christmas mood totally gone.
i miss granny. i miss every moment i spent with my family.
won't get to meet my mermaids again. wtf.

i am just so not me, anymore.
i wanted to go home...
if it was me, i would have told my mum that whatever the fck it is, i WANT to go home.
if it was me, i wouldn't have cancelled the airtickets and insisted to go home.
if it was me, i would have just screamed in the phone.
i am so not me.


christmas, soon to an end of a year.
i always wanted to end my year with a thanksgiving heart.
guess that i need to try hard this time.


i've been kinda emo for the past few days.

stripping off masks is never easy. im tired.
im not going to do it anymore.
im just gonna be whoever everyone wants me to be.
anything la.
i dont care.