it's Krung Thep...

...again.
yeah yeah, its a fantastic place anyway.
it's the city of angels :)
i love Bangkok!

the beauty of Siam from flight :)

the long-anticipated underground mall!

finally i made it to the Temple of Dawn.

Wat Arun.

the one that always appears on postcards.

with my darlings!

our only group pic throughout the whole trip.

my all-time fav.

elephant!



met an aussie there too.he was terrific! :)

i thank God for him, he's just wonderful.


my best travelmate aka buddy for life:)

love you so much!

back to reality.
when lil thai-ultra meets big msian-ultra :)




gonna go packing again. sigh.
unpacking and packing shucks!

finally...

the long anticipated 3d2n escapade with my bunny nat :)


-passport *checked
-money *checked
-clothes *checked
-toiletries *checked
-maps *checked
-mobile phone *checked
-sanitizers&masks *checked


jetting off in 2hours time!
im not as excited but yeah i do miss Bangkok.
hopefully both of us won't get lost
*fingers&toes crossed*




wheels up, KLIA!

it was 6am...

...my mobile was making much noise. it was you.
you screaming from the other side of the phone.
telling me to be ready at 6.30am, you were on your way to pick me up for breakfast.


here we go :)

breakfast in pj.
specsboy, you're too semangat la.

lunch in subang.
your voice still ringing in my brain.
" I WANT BIG DRUMSTICK OK!"
haha.

dinner in puchong.
we ate a lot! haha.
that was freaking hell lots of sushi la.

i still remember your day!
haha. surprised?
happy birthday :)



you bluetoothed this song to my mobile hor! caught you!

距离by庭竹
you called and asked me to googled the lyrics after you left.
haha. sweet boy. thankyou. me loves the song esp the chorus part!
距离 让我们 更懂得 珍惜
距离 让我们 多享受 甜蜜
距离是世界上 最小的 空隙
距离拉近了 我们的 距离
距离装载了 句句的 温暖
距离填满了 许多的 回忆
距离为时间 增添了 色彩
距离让我们 从此没有 距离


safe journey back to singaland!
call me when you see this and miss you brother!

xxx.

i feel like going home...

...to spend some quality time with my family.


i decided to go home, because something happened.
something that rings the bell in my heart. i need to go home.

people wonder why i go home at such a time. i mean as in skipping college and go home. well, don't you think that this is just so Zoe :)

anywayy, this trip back home is purposed to spend some quality time with my family. to you all back at home, pardon me first. yes, you you you you you you you. don't be offended if i refused to go out yamcha or spend time with you. as i've mentioned, this trip back home is for my FAMILY only :)

will find another time and go home spend some quality time with you all, but not this time. wonder why i informed some of you that i'm going back IF i don't plan to spend time with you all. that's because i don't want you to be surpised/shocked when you see me driving/walking on the streets. haha.


someone actually scolded me of not telling her that i went back home last time. you know who you are and this actually spoilt my entire holiday mood and i ended up with a decision: not to meet her! haha. because she threw me tantrum regarding the whole 'i didn't tell her that i was going back home' thingie. who's more childish? :p

i have my own freedom to choose what i want to do :)

incase you didn't read properly, again,
THIS TRIP BACK HOME IS MAINLY FOR MY FAMILY ONLY.
i will still go out but my family will be my priority :)

ooppss, DINNERS ARE MEANT TO BE WITH MY FAMILY too btw.
so, DO NOT BE OFFENDED IF I TELL YOU THAT I DON'T WANT TO GO OUT :) :) :) :) :)


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i found a song. sort of my theme song recently :)
i love the lyrics.



Savior, please
by Josh Wilson

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me

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p/s: please be considerate to a person who spends her past five years away from home. and do look at my heart which desires to spend time with my family :)

spot this...

...we bought it together in singapore in may.

he said he won't wear that shades out wor. haha. get caught redhanded anyway!


lalalalalalala~

we have couple shades!

p/s: this is what we call brotherly love :p

im lazy...

...to think.

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i love this song.

Right in front of me
by Josh Wilson

some say we’ve all been searching for a God for years in vain
and some say belief is just the easy way around our pain
and sometimes i’d like to agree when they’re telling me that this is all an accident
cause it’s hard to let this heart believe when my mind is screaming out I need more evidence
but do i really need more evidence?

i want a miracle, something impossible
so would You help me to believe
when You say everything that’s right in front of me
is all the proof i’ll ever need

i hear it in the winter wind that blows the icy snow against my skin
and i see it in that summer sun that rises high and then burns out again
and i feel it in my chest in the quiet moments that i trust in what You say
would You help me trust in what You say?

maybe this is what it means to question You and still believe
to search and still be satisfied, to know and yet to wonder why
to put my faith in things i doubt, to love what i can’t figure out
maybe this is what it means
to want a miracle, something impossible
but have the faith to still believe
when You say everything that’s right in front of me is all the proof i’ll ever need

don’t need a miracle, something impossible
that makes You easy to believe
When You say everything that’s right in front of me is all the proof i’ll ever need

You’re all the proof i’ll ever need
so would You help me to believe

*****

this song, somehow express the very urge of us, who always wanted miracles, just to prove the existence of God. we search everywhere, just to make sure that God exists in our lives. we question why isn't God listening to us, why God never draw near to us when we need Him?

but why, why do we need miracles to believe God is here? why, why do we need to prove that God exists? you can't see the air but you know that you are breathing in the air :) simple, isn't it? cos oxygen is scientifically proven, it is there, in the air.

what about God? lagi senang lah. we can't use science to measure and even to prove the existence of God because science is created by God :) your existence is the best proof of God's existence! He knows you by name far before You were born. His only Son died for you before you were born. you want proofs? what about this this this this this. take your time and questionings are welcome fyi :)

He told me that the battles that i am facing, are not mine.

but His to fight for me.

how sweet my Jesus is :)

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counting down: 5days to Bangkok.

it has been a while...

...since i last being sarcastic.
haha. great, i feel like being sarcastic again, now. very much.

those who know me well, will know that i am not as sarcastic for real. i am not as sarcastic as to this extent when i am back in hometown. ok, the sarcastic me only appears here in kl :)

happy to hear this?

sometimes, i just do not understand.

why are there people who just do not listen/completely deaf to advices? honestly, when i am giving out my advices/voicing out my opinions, that is when i really do care and i am 101% sure that my advices won't go wrong anyhow. else i wouldn't have to bother that much, get me? i bet you don't.

you might ask/think, who am i to give you advices as i am younger than/few years older/same age as you?

haha.

FCUK YOU, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I'VE BEEN THROUGH AT MY AGE!

have you ever woke up from a nap and found your parents in huge fight, the next moment you know that you dad was gone?
i did, when i was 7.
have you ever been slapped by your mum because of stupid reasons?
i did, when i was 15.
have you ever suffered cos of parents' mishandling of finances?
i did, when i was in primary school years, high school years, even after i came to kl.
have you experienced loansharks coming to your house and wanted to harm your family?
i did, several times.
have you ever betrayed by a trusted friend, someone who you trusted your life with, and found out he/she sold you out for silly reasons? the worse part is, they thought they did not harm you, and asked you to be their friends again with a stupid sorry?
i did, couple of times.
have you ever advised your friends out of a caring heart and they gave you more than a cold shoulder in return?
i did, not the first time.
have you been hurt by someone and others kept on telling you to forgive and let go and go on?
it sounds silly and i did, for a few times.

i appreciated my years back in high school as i've learned/seen the reality of life. cruel, not really. but seeing friends betraying and backstabbing each other over some stupid reasons, it was kinda cool.

my grandpa passed away while i was going to sit for my last spm paper. unnatural death. there were only my dad and i who took care of the whole family that time, i told myself that i could not collapsed, not at such time.

my parents stopped financing me for a year when i was in diploma. did your parents do that to you? mine did just because of some silly quarrels and how cool was that.

everyone thinks that im living in a happy family, yes, i am :)

but i do go through ups and downs too. my family does fail me, relationships too.

so whats the big deal? fall down and get up on your feet again. it's hard, but worth the try. do not tell me that you can't do it when you never even trying and only dwell in the failures. fcuk you. to those who shut me down at my face, crying ' i just can't make it happen!', well, fcuk you twice.

those who feel that life is unfair and it sucks.please go and die. im serious. before you die, please do delete my name from your mobile contact, i don't want people to inform me of you death and most of all, i don't want to give any love gift :) you don't worth any penny even after you are dead.

im tired of telling the same thing again and again. im tired of giving advices and cold shoulders in return. im tired of saying 'i told you so', in fact, i hate to say that.

please, please do get a brain in whatever decisions you are going to make. else, go and friend monkeys. maybe they dont even want to friend you, who knows :)

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p/s: im still a christian though i posted something like this. im the one who deals with my God, not you. so dont you dare to judge me of what i've posted. who are you to judge anyway? :)

so this is it...

...exam is over. time to pack up my busyness and get into something new.

don't know why, i lose the 'appetite' to shop eversince i got back from Aussie.
or i should say, there is nothing new on the line now. the on-the-shelf fahion has been the same since few months ago and i've got those in my wardrobe.
i've got this too many clothes in the wardrobe and seems like there are still tons of new ones that i've bought for months and never worn before. haha. have you ever experienced this?

i think i und what did sophia say earlier on about her wardrobe already. lmao!

love you, wardrobe!

and i miss you, the boy in singaland :)

it's 3.29am...

...few more hours to my last paper. hooraayyy!
im so not in the study mood. where does it go?
sigh. why on earth i don't worry about this paper.
where does my motivation go.
but, im happy :)

my temporary battle camp at home.

haha. this mess is so gonna be-gone when im back from college later.

anywieee, gonna go and date me bed.
needa drag my arse out of the bed later at 6.
nights world!

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I'M BACK.
complete piece of me though i don't really feel excited but hey, im so done with finals :)
it wasn't that tired, i mean the whole revision thingie.
it was sort of fun..to have cranky people around me accompanying me through the past 11days!
ppfffftttt~ im happy :)

haha. as usual, the before last paper shot :)
how happy i was, and i still am :D :D :D

waiting to get into the exam venue.
sigh. left all alone huh :(
my sweethearts weren't with me.

after exam.
me exhausted. politics quenched me dry.

anywieeeee, thats all for now i guess.
i have tonsa more to catch up.
haha. those oootsiee-tootsiee!

Zoe loves, because God first loved her :)

it was saturday...

...you made me think a lot.
religion and relationship. reflections.
i promised i'll be there for you.

anyway, buddy...this is for you :)
do take great care of yourself in singaland. me misses you!

my all-time darling :)

love her!

last paper tomorrow.

yet to start my revisions. migraine.

feel like im having a hangover.

sigh.

after the right-second toe...

...it's my right index finger this time, after the first fractured toe, here.
hahaha.
kewl? i guess so!
especially during exam period. i wonder how i gonna write for the coming 2papers :D

it's gonna be fun.



anywieeee, gonna get back to practise to write properly without using the right index finger.

im thinking of taking the bandage off for 2hours tomorrow.
at least i can hold the pen properly.
screw the pain, i gonna take painkillers first before i take the plastercast off :)



i love Jesus.
cheers :D :D :D :D

it's 090909 today...

...exalt the LORD our God and worship at His holy mountain, for the LORD our God is holy. Psalm 99:9

God assured me this morning.

the Lord watches over you. the Lord is your shade at your right hand.

-Psalm 121:5

yeaps, i may not have much confidence in myself to do the paper but i have a mountain amount of confidence in my God! :D


and there i went to exam.
it was so awesome yet sweet to have Him together with me throughout the exam :)
i finished it within an hour and managed to nap for the next hour.
haha. it wasn' t that hard though cos Jesus did it together with me.



anywieee, when i got home, my spiritual momsie told me:
'then God tell me must trust Him.. just keep you in prayer.... no need to bug you come church.. like how i bug ******. hahahah cause He said...you are ok. He allowing you to go on a journey with Him. of course i told Him.. best if you got come church la. then He said you will come... soon.. ask me pray til you come like that la'

how awesome is that!

i know that im going on a totally new journey with Him, i know, i just know. haha. He told me there's more to come.

need no to worry about me, im indeed in good hands :)
i date Jesus everyday you know! LOL.

i admire the very intimate relationship between God and Moses. it keeps me in awe for long time whenever i read about it in the book of Exodus. i wish to be like Moses too.
God, may i?

:)

i studied until 4am...

....for moral :(

it's in bm and it's effing hard!

then

i woke her up in the morning.
she was kinda mad :D

one of the MUST-do's before each final comes.
hahaha.

it starts to rain heavily around 11am.
the paper is at 2pm
it's still raining now.
sigh, what a nice weather to sleep :(

anywaysssssss...

got the rest of the pics of mtBuller today :) miss the place, so much!

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爸爸说
要努力读书


所以
掰拜~

考完试后见！

finally...

...i got the pics!

miss the good old days :)

the big rocking horse&toy factory :)

the classic jumpshot!

we had vietnamese for dinnner :)

and, a lil bit of exercise after dinner :D

jumpshot!

i miss you all, very much :D

i know...

..i am supposed to be studying right now at this moment.

but,


as i was complaining about moral, whining about this and that, i recalled of something.



01-09-2009
4.27pm
my dad called.
it was a short conversation.
and he asked when am i going to have my final.
i told him that the first paper will be on this coming friday.
and he said something, i couldn't hear it clearly.
i asked him to say it again.
he said, 要努力读书。



my eyes teared.

i promise.

dad, i love you.

i miss them, badly :(

i feel real bad, i can't find even a picture of me together with my parents.

i know why.

maybe i shall go home more often, yeah, more often.

sigh.

im so...

...cbfed with moral.
im serious. im stuck at the 4 theories because my bm sucks.
i just dont get it. why do we need to study moral, somemore in bm.

i've been escaping from it the whole day.
been walking here and there around the house doing nothing.
played with rainbow several times.

and now, my usual routine during exam period.
do mask!
it makes me happy, somehow :D

i had a random thought this morning:
why some people always say no offense before they offend you?

it developed into fb conversation with a friend of mine. then, it led me to think deeper. LOL. she didn't reply me after my own comment. would you come out with other ideas to actually disagree with mine? tell me then!

came across ths random post of his, here.
i loooiiiike it, very much.
he is still the boy i know, when we were young.

i realised...

i start to love blogging in the morning :)



rainbow says morning!
the excited lil fella who brightens my day.

nice weather it is, again.
today :)

feel like falling back to the bed again.
aawww. tempting but not for today :D
i've taken coheeee!

not to forget,
it's my beloved Connie Lai's 23rd birthday today!
my woman's birthday, she asks no cake this year :)
and i'll figure something out to replace the cake.
love you big big!

sigh. revisions start tomorrow can ah?