haha. great, i feel like being sarcastic again, now. very much.
those who know me well, will know that i am not as sarcastic for real. i am not as sarcastic as to this extent when i am back in hometown. ok, the sarcastic me only appears here in kl :)
happy to hear this?sometimes, i just do not understand.
why are there people who just do not listen/completely deaf to advices? honestly, when i am giving out my advices/voicing out my opinions, that is when i really do care and i am 101% sure that my advices won't go wrong anyhow. else i wouldn't have to bother that much, get me? i bet you don't.
you might ask/think, who am i to give you advices as i am younger than/few years older/same age as you?
haha.
FCUK YOU, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I'VE BEEN THROUGH AT MY AGE!
have you ever woke up from a nap and found your parents in huge fight, the next moment you know that you dad was gone?
i did, when i was 7.
have you ever been slapped by your mum because of stupid reasons?
i did, when i was 15.
have you ever suffered cos of parents' mishandling of finances?
i did, when i was in primary school years, high school years, even after i came to kl.
have you experienced loansharks coming to your house and wanted to harm your family?
i did, several times.
have you ever betrayed by a trusted friend, someone who you trusted your life with, and found out he/she sold you out for silly reasons? the worse part is, they thought they did not harm you, and asked you to be their friends again with a stupid sorry?
i did, couple of times.
have you ever advised your friends out of a caring heart and they gave you more than a cold shoulder in return?
i did, not the first time.
have you been hurt by someone and others kept on telling you to forgive and let go and go on?
it sounds silly and i did, for a few times.
i appreciated my years back in high school as i've learned/seen the reality of life. cruel, not really. but seeing friends betraying and backstabbing each other over some stupid reasons, it was kinda cool.
my grandpa passed away while i was going to sit for my last spm paper. unnatural death. there were only my dad and i who took care of the whole family that time, i told myself that i could not collapsed, not at such time.
my parents stopped financing me for a year when i was in diploma. did your parents do that to you? mine did just because of some silly quarrels and how cool was that.
everyone thinks that im living in a happy family, yes, i am :)
but i do go through ups and downs too. my family does fail me, relationships too.
so whats the big deal? fall down and get up on your feet again. it's hard, but worth the try. do not tell me that you can't do it when you never even trying and only dwell in the failures. fcuk you. to those who shut me down at my face, crying ' i just can't make it happen!', well, fcuk you twice.
those who feel that life is unfair and it sucks.please go and die. im serious. before you die, please do delete my name from your mobile contact, i don't want people to inform me of you death and most of all, i don't want to give any love gift :) you don't worth any penny even after you are dead.
im tired of telling the same thing again and again. im tired of giving advices and cold shoulders in return. im tired of saying 'i told you so', in fact, i hate to say that.
please, please do get a brain in whatever decisions you are going to make. else, go and friend monkeys. maybe they dont even want to friend you, who knows :)
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p/s: im still a christian though i posted something like this. im the one who deals with my God, not you. so dont you dare to judge me of what i've posted. who are you to judge anyway? :)
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