ish.

major migraine attacks for days. been trying to soothe the pain by drinking lots of coffee.
lack of sleep. major parts of the thesis is done, including upload it to safeassign.
i need to rest. too much to carry on recently and it all started by postponement of an escapade.
my long anticipated escapade :(

so much to do and yet i have so little time.

勇敢 一点 就不会痛
骗人的
:(

this is me moving on.

today. now. this moment.

bye love.

for real.

i will be good.

i promise.

today's the last day of november :)

flipped through my notebook today.
and i realised that today is the day of facebook!
LOL. obviously i miscalculated the days.
facebook fast is officially over yesterday :)

hi, facebook :)
i wonder how does it feel to be back on facebook again.
hmmmph.

Tangled*

it is a definite must watch that will REALLY REALLY REALLY light up your day :))

so unexpectedly NICE!

*screamss*

never the same.

anymore.


i waited. i knew i shouldnt have to.
it isnt the same as last time anymore.
but you texted, still.

never the same anymore.
since that day.
we both are like oceans apart, apart.
so far, so far away from each other.

i am so careful, when it comes to you.
everything turns out to be fragile since that day.
my fault, i am sorry.
forgive me, will you?

miss you buddy.
miss you.
good night. rest well.

x

CLAIRE DARLING!

<3 <3 <3

fingers.

cramps.

ish.

i do get tired too.

don't come and ask me why.

i hate this stupid question.

:((

爷爷

你说，
孩子， 勇敢地去闯，
去看世界的模样 。

我终于懂时间的重量，
你却不在身旁。


爷爷，
今夜，
我挂念您。

好多年了，
我忘了对您说，
我爱您。

the Crab Island.

a real good experience. a short escapade.

my heart found rest.

joyful short trip.

rainy day.

cute companion.

i'm loving it.

capturing moments.

i never realised i am such a poser-photop!

LOL!

all credits to you :)

short escapade of the heart.

am refreshed.

*smiles*

Pulau Ketam.

i did it on purpose//

i am filling up all my free time so that i will have no time for you.
i make myself tired so that i don't need to find ways to forget about you and cry whenever i think about you.
admit it. that's just life. everyone been there before, i was there and i am now on my way out.

meeting up isn't such a good idea i supposed.
not when i am walking out from there.
i will be fine, i told everyone.
yeah, i definitely will :)

buddy, i wonder why i am always not so wise when it comes to you.
i don't like being like this.

Delectably joyful with my buddies :)

girls with dimples.

she has one on her right cheek and i have one on my left.

the girl who always enlightens me in alot of stuffs and perfectly in lame jokes.

the monkey lover.

he once swore that he would never get anything from the pf store anymore.

and spotted wearing pufak shirt last week.

what was that?! haha.

and...

i think i grow taller this semester :D

see my height!

i fit into the whole frame daaaa :P

and...

see my shorts! the pockets are peeking out! 

i've been wanting this kinda shorts for so long and i got it myself!!

anyway, im deeply-delectably blessed!

half a year to Liverpool.

i am already packing in my head :))

sometimes by steps.

sometimes the night was beautiful
sometimes the sky was so far away
sometimes it seemed to stoop so close
you could touch it but your heart would break

sometimes the morning came too soon
sometimes the day could be so hot
there was so much work left to do
but so much You'd already done

oh God, You are my God
and i will ever praise You

i will seek You in the morning
and i will learn to walk in Your ways 

and step by step You'll lead me
and i will follow You all of my days

sometimes i think of Abraham
how one star he saw had been lit for me
he was a stranger in this land
and i am that, no less than he
and on this road to righteousness
sometimes the climb can be so steep
i may falter in my steps
but never beyond Your reach

:)

say HI to zoo :)

love my newly modified cover.

haha. thanks boss :)

spotted.

=D

missing zee old time :)

spot me! 

:D

Merry Starbucks!

adding one more to my starbucks collection <3

thank you LOVE!

another tuesday.

sitting in the shop,
blogging and hearing people screaming celebrating birthday at Friday's.

i feel very monday, lethargic.
i know it's already tuesday. daaa.
thesis and assignment deadlines.
and work.
cupcakes kinda cheer me up :)

i am spoilt for choices recently.
something good? perhaps.
i dont know.
too much to think and decisions are hard to make.

sometimes
i just miss the old me.
yea, the zoe you used to know very well.
i miss her, do you?

Zoe is,
deeply blessed to be a blessing to bless <3

cross road +

relieved.
i am.
been checking out the mailbox twice everyday faithfully for the past 3weeks.
i was nervous.

went to cut my hair short, again.
scott was surprised to see me and asked why.
i told him that i hate combing my hair.
i want to be someone you don't like.
i want to do things that you didn't approve me of doing last time.
i feel like i've won being like this.

i feel like i've moved a big step forward.
at another crossroad, now.
i yet to start to seek advice.
i know who has my best interests at heart, Him :)
He knows what's best for me and i put my trust in Him, alone :)
He is my provision alone. He is my shelter. He is my comforter at all time.
i am His, forever :)

victoryyyy :)

my GOD is so big

so strong and so mighty 

there's nothing my GOD cannot do for me!

if GOD is for me

who can be against me :)

the kind of Sunday.

it's not the perfect Sunday ever.
but i think i will get better as time passes.

mum called and asked me how have i been these few days.
i told her that i miss her, very much.
and i am glad that you called, mum :)

i feel like going home and be home today.
siblings are probably be out at this time.
mum is probably taking a nap in her room.
sunday afternoons, my usual talking time with dad, in the living room.
we will just talk, about everything.
i just miss it. right now, right there.

and...i don't feel like leaving anymore.
leaving this place where i call my home.

home.
i want to be home.

the lill angel who made my day :D

stumbled across this. which i took quite some time ago, few years ago i think.

HAHA.

itch itch itch.
very itchy. imagine me scratching all over my body while i am walking :S
very itchy. and it kinda aches. some parts turn biru hijau lagi.
doctor said it is serious allergy. what the/////////
and it comes from nowhere with no signs.
and there, he declared me a vegan for a week or more than that.
practically saying, UNTIL I AM FULLY RECOVER.

anyway, i going to be well, very soon :)
cos of the cost that Jesus beared for me on the cross, i am healed :))
you'll see me jumping around in town screaming your name soon :D

i feel November now :)

been kinda busy working recently.

surrounded by gorgeous cakes and treats. 

my new flats are happy :D

i am happy too!

frankly.

i am very very interested in this.

trying my best to work it out now.

keep me in prayers k?

:))

God's goodness always exceeds my wildest expectations :))

Gloucestershire or Liverpool?

considering and thinking :)

such tempting offer.

wisdom wisdom and wisdom :)

to make wise wise decisions.

money money matters.

God is my provision and He will provide :))

i also pray that your mind might see more clearly. then you will know the hope God has chosen you to receive. you will know that the things God's people will receive are rich and glorious. -Ephesians 1:18

before 12.

i called.
we talked.
you sounded happy over the phone.

you are happier now.


first day at work later in the morning.
you sounded excited over it.
new phase of life, you said.

keep you in prayers, i will.

buddy,
take care x

2.18am

stumbled across your blog.
it's an abandoned blog now i think.
but this post somehow warms my heart, again.
dolphin.

those were the times, when everything seemed so easy,
with you around.
you were always there, always there for me.



frankly.
i miss those times.

we haven't been talking for quite a while.
it's better this way, i guess.
no pressures, no quarrels, no tears.

nights are quiet, very quiet.
there are times when i need to get myself really tired to sleep.
it's either i stare at the wall and count sheep to sleep.
or i make myself tired and hit the bed the moment i get home.
nights are quiet. like now.


we are
still friends, i guess.
you are
a friend, who i am going to keep,
for the rest of my life.

miss you,
dear friend.

x

it's about the popcorns at Delectable!

a few customers dropped by today and asked :

you guys only do popcorns few times a day? 

that's all left for today? *looking at the popcorn machine*

me: yeah..that's all left for today.

they replied: 

ohh..then i'll come back to get some tomorrow. a lot of people told us that Delectable serves yummy popcorns.

me: *smile big big*

after a while.....

my colleague asked:

don't you think that it's very weird for customers to come and ask for popcorns instead of cupcakes or cakes at Delectable?

me: ...yahor.

BTW, i am the one who pops popcorns at Delectable :)

Jesus promised, 

everything my hands touch will be blessed. 
even it's only popcorns.
( i love popping popcorns at work btw, it's sooo fun! )

i started proclaiming blessings everyday ever since i started to work.

*humph*

God's goodness always exceeds my wildest expectations. 

 He is a God whose goodness and generosity i can always count on.

LOVE MY JESUS SO MUCHHHH 

:)))

Delectably Yappy!

how adorable!!

saw this when i reached Delectable today.

and i went like... awwwwwwwww...shooo CUTE!

the cupcake family!

i think i know why im gaining extra pounds recently :S

i think i really love working at Delectable :)

i am

YES.

Zoe is JESUS-BRANDED :)

Jesus reminds me of how much He loves me, everyday :)

by His stripes, i am healed.

by His grace, i am forgiven.

unconditional love, He is.

the Lover of my soul :))

fear not, because the Lord is my strength. 

as someone who's been in military strategy is to know your enemy.

BUT as a christian, i believe that the most important military strategy is not to know my enemy, but to know my commander in chief and his directives for me! and who's my commander in chief?  Jesus Christ!

fear not, because He promised that He will be with me, all the days of my life. He will never never leave me, never never forsake me. my future is indeed in good hands.

and guess what?

my God, is a God who cannot lie!

His promises endure forever :D

i was alone at shop today.

Delectably-fun :)

i'll run away with you.

we had fun doing thesis :)

Sunday evening; raining.

don't be like this la. after everything is over then it will be dolphin time :)

i still remember this, clearly.
it rings in my head, every now and then when i am burnt/stressed out.
there were...memorable moments which i used to have.
but somehow i was stupid enough to ruin it all.

anyhow, i did it by myself.
i went to dolphin show myself.
i went to fly kite by myself.
i went to the beach, by myself.
i brought along all the promises.
just that they were all without you in them.

getting blue during a rainy evening.
how naive was i back then.
to stand in the rain and let the tears ran down my cheek.
i laughed a little at myself and begged myself to grow up.

i miss my teddy, my red teddy. very much.
it was and still is my favorite teddy.
it used to go everywhere with me.
just like how you did.
someone who was always there when i needed someone.
i've passed the teddy on, however.
it's a loyal teddy though.
it will accompany you throughout all the cold nights when emptiness strikes.
treasure it, alright? :)

i've learnt.

i am not hiding. i just sort of decided to get up and get out.

i've stripped off layers of masks and started everything anew.

sooner or later, i'll be fine. just fine.

there are much more to achieve/gain in life. 

not just those which i could see with my eyes now.

i know :)

i know, my future is indeed in good hands.

thank You :)

thank You for Your kindness
thank You for Your mercy
thank You for the cross
thank You for the price You paid

thank You for salvation
thank You for unending grace
thank You for Your hope
thank You for this life You gave

thank You for Your promise
thank You for Your favor
thank You for Your love
and everything You've done for me

there is no one like You, God
all my hope is in You, Jesus

to Your name
i give all the glory
to Your name
i give all the praise

You're alive
Our God everlasting
So let Your face shine on me








a song that spoke to me last night when i was on my way home.
i just felt that divine joy deep down.
i sort of personalized the lyrics :)
i am so grateful for everything that Jesus had accomplished on the cross.
we had holy communion at home together last night.
it was good :)


God woke me up at 5.48am just now.
He asked me to go and feed my hamster ><
i was like.."God, not now lah..it's like so so so early in the morning'"
and i gave tonsa of reasons to refuse to get up.
in the end, i reluctantly got out from bed and went to feed my hamster.
the moment i reached the cage, it was already there waited for me to feed it.
>__< i never realized my Jesus sayang my hamster so much too. 


i came to a realization that God was actually trying to tell me that He takes care of everything, even my lil hamster. He takes care of every little detail that concerns of me. He takes care of me, He concerns of me, He loves me, far more than i love Him :)
He put that sense of security in my heart and yea, He will never never leave me never never forsake me :)
i give thanks that my God cannot lie :p





So let Your face shine on us

we've got new curtains :))

i am uber happy about it :))
been wanting curtains for the living room for so long.
next up will be dining table and sofa set!
whoops!
i am trusting God for that :))
He knows my heart's desires and He's already up for that even before i asked.
ahhh, love you Jesus!


gonna work today.
i dont feel much draggy though cos Aida wont be around :P
Aida just loves to test me on products manual and i dont really like it.
will be spending time with Mar and Denise at work today.
a day of fb-ing and chitchating i think.
and popcorn!

emailed a travel agency in SG asking about trip to Jerusalem.
i wanna walk Via Dolorosa, at least once in my lifetime.
don't you think it's just amazing to be there, spending some time sitting down and thank Jesus about what He has done for us? right at the place He carried the cross for us two thousand years ago. i think i'd loved that :)


i feel like doing something to my hair.
shave it shave it.
haha. we shall see how :D

Day-One

12.21am

i am kinda hyper and restless and loud lately, pardon me.
i am just being joyful. i have so much joy in me!
i am so loved by others and i am now overloaded and decided to spread it out :))

ahh, you know what, Jesus is so good!
way too good. He gives me basically everything i wanted and He definitely knows whats best for me.
of course there are times when i turn really stubborn and wanted things to be done in my way, He just let me be but never let me doing it alone. He'll just be there, yea, be there for me and catch me when i fall :))

i love it, when there are only Him and i. we chitchat and we talk and we share secrets.
ah well, life is just so beautiful :))


i heart you, so much.
the girls with fringe :)

i feel so full :D

while i was waiting today, i took some time and talked to God..sort of exchanging thoughts and asked Him of stuffs that happened recently. i asked for direct answers from Him. with a book in my hand and hillsongs playing in my playlist, i felt peace, divine peace. and as i was reading and talking to Him, these lines came to my sight and yeah, that's the answer!

God has a better way for you. it hurts Him to see His own precious children groveling like sycophants just to get ahead of life. if a door closes, so be it! believe with full confidence that God has a better way for you. you do not have to depend on favoritism to keep opportunities open for yourself when you  have God's unmerited favor on your side! - Unmerited Favor by Joseph Prince.



yea, if a door closes, so be it! God has a definite better way for me!

if you happened to drop by, here i am to tell you.
it is not God who refused to answer your prayers, simply because what you thought best for you wasn't good enough for you!
He knows what's the best for you and He wants you to have the best instead of the second best  :))

yea, He knows what's best for me, definitely :))
ahhh, i simply love Him, sooo much!

2010

i am going to talk about my God, now.
i am never gonna cease to praise Him.


He is, the one who loves me far before i was born.
He is, the one who provides.
He loves me, a lot!
i am blessed, i am not lucky.
i am blessed, truly blessed.
and i am now, blessed to bless  :))

in Him, i have no lack.
in Him, i found all my heart's desires fulfilled.
in Him, i found myself perfect.

in the cleft of the rock, He protects :))


i've got a special something today from a darling.
weird huh. it isn't my bday and yet im getting something nice from someone nice :)
i yet to open it, it looks like something that could made me tear.
still, if you are reading this, i wanna tell you that i love it even from the outlook of it.
and i am glad that you are here, now.
i hope i am able to be there for you, whenever you need me.
i will do everything that i can, to help and for you :)
do not ever be paiseh to ask for help or anything.
cos we all are here, for you and with you.
you're not alone :))

unmerited favor.
a book that i am currently reading.
a brand new journey with God.
am blessed.
discovery of blessings is so exciting!
:))
i love you, Jesus :)

the word T.

i am always a fan of groupie thingie. i love doing assignments in group cos that means i need not to cover and do everything by myself. there are always group members to turn to and definitely even more motivated to get things done *more pressures* hehe.

since the begining of forming thesis group, i've been praying about it. for each and every of my group members, of their health and well beings and stuffs. while brainstorming for research topics, i prayed too. surprisingly we came out with quite similar opinions, no arguments. smooth sailing all the way. i prayed too, for a good thesis supervisor. she wasn't someone who we expected to be, misunderstandings and bad communications started even before we met her up. i was kinda upset and sorta blamed God for that. but as time passes, i realised that there is a lesson to learn and she is, definitely is someone who is capable to guide us through until the end of it. it's a process of learning. God didn't give me what i thought was best for me, but gave me what He thought is best for me instead. it is never easy, to work with a supervisor who is strict and having high expectations but we've started to learn and we changed, to become better :)

we're now half way through our thesis, 2 more months until our submission. tomorrow will be the starting of our chapter 4, carrying out experiments at a childcare center. we know it's never gonna be easy and my brain told me that it's never gonna be easy to work with kids. but God, my heavenly Father told me that things are just gonna be okay, even much better than just okay.

i am grateful. it's not the end of the thesis yet but i am already overwhelmed by His merciful kindness. looking around and found my group is definitely the most blessed one. we've been through it with no quarrels, no arguments and yeah things have been really great and we get along really well. i give thanks for that :) i am thankful for the great people i have in my group, they are really really really great.

God said, every work of my hand will be deeply blessed. i am not lucky, i am blessed. deeply, truly blessed :))


looking forward to the experiment tomorrow!
God said He will put me in the cleft of the rock and i am all safe and blessed!

Delectable Elf

i cant stop God for the overflowing blessings that He is now pouring into my life. 

honestly it's too good to be true. but i still want it all...all the blessings stated in the bible :DD

started to work part time. at Delectable :)

tuesdays at pavilion, fridays and saturdays at the gardens.

so you know where to find me on these days :))

do drop by and check out our cakes/desserts/treats!

i love it there. the place and the people.

everyone who works there is called: delectable elf :D

im the delectable popcorn-elf now instead of delectable zoe-elf.

im good at popping popcorns *proud*  

God says everything that my hands touched will be blessed :DD

arhh popcorns!

love you soo much DAD :))

今天
我又更爱您了

耶稣
好爱 好爱 好爱 您

:)

Cosmobeaute Vietnam 2011

we're gonna rock it hard :D

hello, Vietnam!

忍耐

在妳眼中  我看见了自己  以前的自己

给自己一个期限  哭完了  就给我站起来

跌倒了  就给我爬起来  痛  是一定会的

不痛  又怎么会成长  没有雨天  又怎么会有彩虹

妳  让我心疼的妳

累了  就休息  我的肩膀  没有很厚

但是可以  让妳靠  过去的  让它过去

哭了 伤了 再来过 不怕

妳 还有我们

我

就是那么地倔强

就是那么的固执

我

就是要得到我要的

就是要做我想要的

我就是这样  你说过你最讨厌我这么说

但是 我 就是这样

我改到很累  迁就到很累

每天睡前 还是会想起 那孩子气的对话

我 想念  你 会不会

我很努力 我在独立

我 不再哭了  你 看到了没

很喜欢回家 听见温暖的问候

开心的笑容

我的家 有爱 暖暖的爱

今晚 偷偷靠了她的肩膀一下

才发现 我好像累了

好想 好想  再靠多一下下

让我暖一下 

我的耶稣说

他很爱很爱我 很爱很爱我

阿爸父

偷偷告诉您

我也好爱 好爱您哦

好爱 好爱 好爱

我这一生 都献给您

让您用 好不好

i did it :)

my memorable 10.10.10

when it all comes crushing down.

when i am lost without a cause after giving it my all

winter storms came and darkened my sun

when i am about to lose my breath

when there is nothing left

when i am sinking and rising no more

when i am searching for that open door

when every road that i've taken led to my regret

and i don't know if i am going to make it

when my levees are broken and my walls are coming down on me

my rain is falling and defeat is calling

i lift up my head and look to You :)

i know that You will set me fee and take me far away from the battle

after all my strength is gone 

in You, i can be strong :)

when melodies are gone

in You, i hear a song :)

just like that?

been shopping like there's no tomorrow recently.

i'm just too free i guess and being with the wrong clique makes me spend even more. haha.

i'm not contented, at all.

been trying to fill my schedule with lots of activities.

going everywhere and get home as late as i could.

i'm a little lost, insomniac and watch talk shows to sleep every single night.

i'm still a little emo at times but i'm better by now, i cry to sleep no more.

i will soon to be okay i guess.

did movie marathon today.

Charlie St.Cloud and Eat Pray Love.

both were nice, seriously nice movies which make me thinks alot.

about haunted by the past and moving on then decide what do i want for life.

i was moved by the characters in both movies...well. my kind of movie :)

did a lil shopping today and it's a birthday gift. 

not exactly what i wanted as a gift but okay lah don't hiam so much.

life's better that way.

a gift which i don't know if i will even get the chance to give it out.

i'll just get it prepared and see how by then :)

my body is dead tired but im just so damn wide awake now.

that huge patch of blueblack is damn aching :S

i wont run and chase after people and play around next time anymore lor.

sigh.

went and got the form for remark today.
people around me are quite discouraging and telling me not to waste money.
but i am not gonna be shaken :) i have faith in my Jesus and i am truly aware of what He can do for me :)
i'm just gonna go and talk to the tutor and ask for her mercy to remark my paper.

andd...i still remember me myself, yes, i, complaining about working life months ago.
guess what. i just applied for a part time job and i am going for interview!
hope that i can really take it... gaining more experience and meeting more people :)
i need that job seriously and i am talking my brain into loving it.
shall see how things go by then.


arh. i am so blessed!