Sunday, September 5, 2010

an old soul that longing to be free.

a part of me wanted to stay and the other part of me told me to leave.
leave everything behind and learn to fly, on my own wings, again.

i had the worst day ever yesterday.
started from continuous smses and calls from home.
disasters, i called them.
ended with i was blamed for whatever happened.

then cramps.
stomach cramped since the afternoon.
fml. 
the pain grew from tolerable to unbearable.
hence, i decided to go to bed early, to rest.
and to think.

fell asleep. woke up by a phone call and things got worse.
i was scolded for stupid things that i did.
well, that was how i felt too, when you did the same thing to me last time.
i wanted you to know how i felt and i didn't know it would caused such big reaction from you.
i am sorry.
sorry for putting you through all these.
i am sorry.


insomniac, single, lost, have to drink your dad's scotch to fall asleep at night.
that was what sophe told me the other day.
her 5am club.
i guess i am in now.

done with packing last night.
i wish i could fast-forward time and hop on the train by now.
i'll be safe and sound. no worries.
i know how to take good care of myself. 
i know what to do and what not to do.
backpacking and wandering around.
that's what i am quite good at :)

will be fine.









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